This is in Earth.

Irrevocable

2008-10-15T01:29:00.000+08:00

Doors once open, now closed.

Once you've made a decision,
it changes something for life.

In just one split second.

I wonder how we once talked so carefree,
but things just never remained the same always.

Memories are tenacious creatures.

They remind you how life is,
and playback repeatedly eating into your present.

Sometimes no matter how hard you try holding on,
things just never turn out the right away again.

A relationship is like a journey.

It's okay if you both are at a road block for you're only stuck for awhile.

But when someone steers into another direction,
something totally different begins.

Can it be kept simple?
Does it have to be an arduous journey?
What's with reproach, vengence or

Indifference?

What for try to tell yourself it doesn't matter?

Idk what exactly is in my head right now, maybe it's who instead. Don't you feel strange, things just happen this way? 1 year ago, something else was happening. 2 years ago, so was it. 1 month ago, so was it. 2 months ago and a week or so, yes also was it.

Neh mind, time to get some sleep and start on some revision.

& Today is JAYCHOU ALBUM RELEASED DAY! :D

Past few days had been fun with Bel, tinGz, Ame, dreA, Nat, JJ, Raymond, Nick, Tayxi, Ailin, Jo, Mx, Xh, Mum, Brenda & Eileen, seeing Wj, Peh & Yihao tho missing Cherine, inside!

I have to place my trust in you.

2008-10-11T01:42:00.000+08:00

OK time to post something more normal?!

http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Iocwp1-lE8o/SO9klg9dmcI/AAAAAAAAB3E/vq5cODGkRtw/s320/DSC02019.JPG Haha!

K here goes! Some updates about lifestyle though can't be exciting as compared to Jie♥, heehee. Thanks for the perfume & $!
Though no more B&J!!! :(

All i rmb about last week was going to Bugis with Elissa last monday! Thanks for walking around with me to Dhoby Ghaut! <3 :-*

Then Eugene's birthday last tuesday and we went for Crashcourse (left early=wasted 5 bucks! HAHA) and MOF and Bedok for supper! :D

Oh holiday I had to stay home last Wednesday to keep myself grounded... Yet couldnt help it. Ended up waking up at 4.30pm but went to buy chocolates from Downtown! :D

Reebok WALK with Favourite Person last Saturday, (to think we both turned out reluctant to go LOL!) and we had Nikon Mura at Cathay at a really cheap price!!!

Got the picture from her blog once again! :D

Its been quite a good week, wandering around Raffles Place with tf trying to find Zhou's Kitchen at Far East Square! Had super filling har gao and dian xin! I'm such a good eater HAHAHA. Then we had Starbucks & went Killiney, LOL. :D $$$

Studied in school with Raymond, Louisa & Huayu for quite some time on tuesday, and I realised studying in school's alright and also funneh! :D
Had Eighteen Chefs with Mum & Bro, had bolognese cheese fries & Brownie too, yummy! (Y)

Went to school, bad morning with Zy, but Mr Mok's so understanding! :)
Studied with Nds in the afternoon & had BK AGAIN! Anyway Mushroom Swiss Tendergrill's good, so good, i had it twice last week! Haha. Dinner with mum! Thanks for the well wishes Eileen, Brens, Ys, Nds, Nat, Sis & Bro i've recovered! (:

Yesterday, went for cell! Love Zhuting♥! And all la heehee! :D

(Plus YiRen who's so funny!) ;)

Walked home for dinner, met up with Brenda & Eileen later! <3

My Ai Xin<3 Cafe Mocha lol! :D

A Night of CoffeeBean, Marshmallows, Jellybeans. Wang for breakfast! :D

Went up to school today! Did Math, then went to the airport again with Louisa, listened to some cool music, came home, jogged, played the piano, etc etc how relaxing. :)

K what else... Gifted friend gave me a huge shock this week! How's all of us gna accept it... Lol. K la this part's rubbish haha!

Cocoa Trees Jellybeans!

Study hard
♥ALICIA ANDREA CIHUI GERALDINE GRACI LOUISA WANQI XINLING♥
AND TAKE CARE!
Study hard Edmund, Tf, Ame, Bel, Nick, Raymond, Zoooots, Xh, Jo, Leo.Soh, GraceGayf 1GH05/2GH06/CPS6A04!!! :D

STUDY HARD JIEMEIS♥!!!!

STUDY HARD 4K08
AT LEAST GET THOSE DISTINCTIONS WHICH WE CAN MAKE IT FOR LA HOR!

Study hard, E V E R Y O N E! :D

Gonna perfect painting a ♥! (:

Will be spending time with you all soon, Jiemeis!!!

Gave an open invitation, rolled out the red carpet, but the guest ain't present

2008-10-04T23:19:00.000+08:00

And if you know me enough, my doors are clearly open.

Just ask, and that's the key to get to the answer.

Yet still, this isn't always the case.

You walk through a door and stay with the host when you have the time. But when you start to get caught up on other things, you leave, maybe politely or sometimes in a huff. Sometimes you think when you walk away you've left only footprints behind. But was it really traces you left behind, or did you take traces along with you too? While leaving, if slamming the door shut makes you happy, you prolly should go ahead. For you most likely ain't the first who has done it anyway.

I suppose everybody has things like doors but seriously, who's the actual one controlling it huh? Stupid emo night. Everybody, we're one step closer to utopia if we stop being paranoid! :D

See ah, if you just don't treat problems as problems, there won't be problems! I'm going to find my own paradise someday...

You know, if you're happy and wanna sabotage me anytime, go ahead. I don't really give a damn to the cold side of this world for i can join anytime and gladly play along with you. You decide which side you want to be on, i'll be together with you, and we'll never know the outcome.

i think

2008-10-03T14:17:00.000+08:00

Time is ticking and the world is dying ,

i'm just hoping that my friends are having a better time, than i am

even while studying now, or not. all the best!

i think i'm tired, sometimes i don't know why can i be so indifferent and i don't care what do you think of that about me. all i think that i know now is, i need to sleep. but not with the truckloads of practice papers given to us circulating in my head... i need some fun yet again.

Retrace

2008-10-02T01:27:00.000+08:00

Oh, how I've tried to get you out of my head
And I lie broken in words I said
Never thought I'd walk on this street again
Standing where it all began

Tried to forget when I left this town
But it takes me right back when I come back around

Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night
I'm there by your side
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away
Counting backwards while the stars are falling

Oh, how I find, every subtle thing screams your name
It reminds me of places and times we've shared
Couldn't live locked in these memories
Now I'm chained to my thoughts again

And I tried to forget when I left this town
But I'll take you right back if you come back around

Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night
I'm there by your side
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away
Counting backwards while the stars are falling

I need some shelter. I need some safety
Photographs, they hold me lately
Chasing shadows as the evening takes me
I'm still searching, but the pictures fading

Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night
I'm there by your side
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away
Counting backwards. Still counting backwards

And no where else has ever felt like home
And I can't fall asleep when i'm lying here alone
I replay your voice, it's like you're here
You move the earth, but now the sky is falling

Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night
In my mind, I'm back by your side
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away
Counting backwards while the stars are falling

What a relaxing holiday. Don't try speaking words you know will be regarded as nonsense to me. Not when i know who i've got behind my back to side me even if you're not. Good day. ;)

Picture's fading, sky's falling.

30TH SEPTEMBER IS COMING!

2008-09-29T00:19:00.000+08:00

YOU MIGHT THINK SO WHAT.

AND SO,

30TH SEPTEMBER IS EUGENE PEH'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!

IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND BE NICE AND WISH HIM HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO WHEN YOU SEE HIM K! (SMS ALSO CAN, HE'LL CONFIRM REPLY!) IF YOU MANAGE TO PUT A SMILE ON HIS FACE, I'LL GIVE YOU 100. MANAGE TO MAKE HIM CRY, I'LL GIVE YOU 10000... BUCKS!?!!
LOL KIDDING LAHH.

HE'S NOT HUM SUP LOU LA, THOUGH CAN'T DENY THAT SOMETIMES HE'S AN S HOHOHEHE but still, HE IS MY ZAI FRIEND! (Y) :D HAHAHAHA P.S. XIAOP... IS GONNA TURN 60 ALR EHHH I MEAN SIXTEEN! :D

Kay enough of that he'll come gan me soon! HAHAHA sianzxzxz I've whiled away hours this weekend, merely doing 1 amath question, paper 1 of emath, touched a lil of physics, chem and bio. It makes me feel like i'm just out on some pretext of studying but instead am maximising my opportunities to spend $$. How silly.

Time for some music appreciation and it's bedtime soon. I'm so lazy... I need some adrenaline rush or boost to study, study, stardeeee, STUDdeee. Of which reminds me, i lost my stud AGAIN sianxxx!

Out tmr, then tuesday is some BIG DAY for SOMEONE la hor! ;)

CRASHCOURSE BANG! NOW IS A HAHAHAHAHA KIND OF MOMENT IM STILL HAPPY NEHX. UP NEXT, I KNOW EUGENE POSTED THESE SONGSS UP LONG AGO ALREADY BUT COS I'M A LIL LAG EH.

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HhLpjqo2WhI&hl=en&fs=1]
只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己

撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
安静了在我枕边的梦里
我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一场雨
努力就有结局

撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你爱着你的
连假的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IbHFFpVfKgM&hl=en&fs=1]

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落?
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

不要这黱容易就想放弃
就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机
现在终於飞回我手里

所谓的那快乐
赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了
谁在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

BUT THIS IS STILL MY FAVOURITE:

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vKc1ngYo5Q0&hl=en&fs=1]

Sometimes it's so tough to have a peaceful day without anyone pissing you off or making you think. Be it at home, or out. So where is the best place after all!? I WANNA WATCH LAN QIU HUO SOOOOON!!! GOODNIGHT! SOS.

Sarcasm.

2008-09-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

Am i supposed to be happy for i feel that i had shown tremendous improvement for my results though it's still average in the cohort!?

I just missed being the last 10 in class by 1 position, which i think is good for i got an improvement of 4 positions. Not pathetic, considering that our class is GOSU! :D But at least i managed to cut my L1R5 by half & improve in my average by 10% or more i think. But i still missed 75% by 0.1%.

Well since when did i start getting interested in results? Mmhmm let's see. Maybe after spending more than half my time not studying. Or maybe after seeing Xh getting first in class and level! ;)

It's so hard to just sit down and do my work. I don't know why i can skip so many pages of the textbook(s) and scrape through by luck... I can't rest on my laurels just yet. O levels are just 24 days away, so who gives a sod about Prelims when O Levels is the real thing. To think of it, blogging about results can be the most silliest thing to do sometimes, yet i'm doing just that.

FOR IT IS TIME FOR YOU WHO
IS TAKING THE O LEVELS/EXAMS TOO,
TO FEEL THE JITTERS.

Sianxxx actually i still can't feel it myself so i'm trying to see if such things have an effect on me. :o

Eugene Peh i know you blogged that i gonna zou huo ru muo alr! You are just as retarded as i am (for compensating the cup) and i wonder if you'll notice this part :twisted: HAHAHAHAHA this is my HAHAHAHAHA.

It's time i be a model student in everything else. I just can't stand it when people act sarcastically to me. Maybe because i'm like that too when I go my usual Ya, ya. Ha, Ha, Ha.

I'm just a tad paranoid.

I won't take in the nonsense you give

2008-09-27T23:28:00.001+08:00

Sometimes this world just makes you want to SCREAM OUT LOUD.

What's with all the principles they try to inculculate in us since young when in reality the society's going in the opposite direction totally and while there you are believing that someday all those current social issues/problems can be changed, it gets even worse when you find out that those you look up to aren't even good examples themselves.

This is so screwed up.

One word, BULLSHIT.

If i could i won't care a sod about everything. It's just infuriating seeing how everyone reacts, even i, and i should stop ranting. Wasn't home for 23 hours and i'm happy about it. So HAPPY i could jump for joy, high enough to get onto the top of the world and once again, this post is junk.

Thank God for friends.

Good word

2008-09-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

CAN'T

YOU

JUST BE MORE

SENSITIVE?!?!?!

Once more.

2008-09-11T00:17:00.000+08:00

To the Fit, Smart, Good in soccer Dude! I hope you are feeling good! LMAO LMAO ROFL.

Finally finished my Zuowen today, after doodling on it yesterday at that supposedly-cool-and-breezy Starbucks environment. I managed to write one page out then it started pouring, got so cold that i gave up, called mum up for dinner, and had a good talk with her. Had Popeyes after church today! Then this evening, i attempted to blog through a cool ipod while at mccafe but the battery ran flat on me! What lousy 20% lifespan!!!! :P But the environment by the window and the cool songs played by the ipod got my thoughts running wild. I need to flip a coin to decide if that's good or bad. Haha ha.

I know i should stop my unbearing manners as a female towards certain 'special' people.. But you can't blame me. I grew up in those conditions and it lives in the inside of me.

Twilight's pretty captivating. I'm finally finishing, while Andrea's already almost done with Breaking Dawn, and Louisa's done long ago too. I'm lagging behind!!!!

I thought i lost my chain today and almost went crazy, flustered, or whatever you call it. Oh well. I should be prepared to lose it anytime. Shouldnt matter already anyway. It's merely a MMI matter!

Lucky

2008-09-07T02:19:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i think i'm pretty lucky, somehow.

The past whole week was just great! 'Celebration', followed by 'celebration', and 'celebration'!!! Pictures up next time!

30/8: ISABEL'S BIRTHDAY!

02/9: LIHAN'S BIRTHDAY!

04/9: CIHUI'S BIRTHDAY!

05/9: WEN JIA'S BIRTHDAY!

I love them all, Bel whom i want as my boyfriend if im a girl! Hans my jiemei, Cihui my team mate for FOUR years, Wj my favourite person! :D

CAN YOU TELL HOW IMPORTANT THEY ARE!!!!

SOON AFTER IT'LL BE.... DOES ANYONE (the 30, 40, 60, 70 -odd of you reading) HAVE ANY SUGGESTION FOR A PLACE AROUND THE EAST, WHICH CAN ACCOMODATE ABOUT 40 PPL FOR DINNER?? PLS JUST MSG/CALL ME! (:

Thank you for the watch Louisa loveyou loveyou loveyou!

Sorry i haven't been spending time with you all JMs, see you all soon! :-*

Thank you for each and everyone of you.

Bel, Brenda, Ray, tinGz, dreA, Ame, Nds, Nat, Jiajun, Peh, Hans, Elissa, Cherine, Eileen, Graci, Lou, all who went to Cihui's bbq, Wj, Ryan, Ms, Elizabeth, Mum, Sis, Ziyang, Junjie ... ... ... ! (:

I'm happy for after dinner i could happily eat my Crunch and some chocolatesss.. Maybe if i flip a coin and say heads now, it'll be heads too, hopefully! Can't wait for the day after i wake up in 6 hours time! I gonna be zombiefied but who cares. I am going to bask in and enjoy this momentarily happiness i have tonight and enjoy the coming day! And hopefully, days! (:

Not that complicated... I wish.

2008-08-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

I manage to find an excuse not to study everytime. I miss a lot of people, so, so, bad! I don't know why, some i had even seen them just not long ago, but I am missing them now.

' A A C G G L W W X Y ' E E C G J Z and many more in the depths of my heart. I like Adeline's for trying to smile while taking the photo with me! :D

2008-08-27T20:20:00.011+08:00

Edited- Who are you?

2008-08-27T00:17:00.000+08:00

I know what I want, so badly, but i got no drive, no hopes, no reciprocation and minimal strength.

You should really figure out what i want before you do anything.

I just need you to tell me my hopes are dashed.

You won't kill me because of some amath paper.

Will you please kindly tell me you are really fine a few days later?

Thank you for studying with me today. :)

Thank you for the help via the phone last night.

Thank you for replying my msgs during my most distressed moments.

Thank you for accepting my invitation on the 13th of September.

Thank you for laughter and joy in my life.

I love you all for your concern.
Meanwhile, please mug hard. :D

No one should get hurt, but there are exceptional times. We all pull through however. Or rather, scrape through?

i should start.

2008-08-23T01:59:00.000+08:00

hi, its another unexpected week. i really hate the fact how things go on in such a thrilling manner. first up, something bad happens, then once it's over something really exciting happens. however next moment another shock is given, and all these happen in just one day. all in one stupid day. so instead of a full circle 360 degrees, it's a wheel spinning seven hundred and twenty degrees. life can sometimes be defined by a sine curve, with a really great amplitude.

my heart's being mended, but broken, mended, but broken, and it goes on like a vicious cycle. i'm hanging on, because the One and only One tells me to. i dont care how do you treat me, because those who really cares mend my heart, stays with me, and let me know i'm never alone. so despite how you put me down, i'll get back up again.

it was still a great week as i went to bras basah for the first time and got amused by almost everything there. many of my friends have been really great too. they never fail to surprise me with some interesting moves or make me smile/laugh over interesting matters. seeing wj was good, seeing all those i love around me is good. im liking thursdays with amelia, raymond, andrea, tinGz, jj and nat! but i believe we'll grow into a bigger group soon so all the more i must treasure the times now, and later! i hope you had a great day, Grace! happy 16th birthday! <3

and the opposite of love, is indifference.

One day..

2008-08-13T00:12:00.000+08:00

Thanks Wong, for being with me today so that i did not have to be MMI! ^^

Cause’ if one day you wake up
and find that your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe you’d come back here
to the place that we’d meet
Then you’d see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street,
So I’m not moving
I’m not moving

Okay this song is pretty nice haha.

Olympics 08.

2008-08-08T01:00:00.000+08:00

Let's pray for a good day,

as i pray too,

that i will start on my composition soon,

in the remaining 6 hours before i end up in school.

Sigh.

It isn't that life is really boring,

dull,

nor monotonous.

But when the realization struck me,

about why am i keeping something dear by my side instead of keeping it away for 'display' as a prized possesion,

risking it getting yanked,

then having to bother others,

including myself,

to fix it..

It totally alters my mood.

I hope spoil isn't the right word to use,

otherwise Matt,

you might feel guilty,

for life.

Ha, ha, ha ha ha.

Please take this lightly.

Sunny

2008-08-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

I'm taking the most undeserving break today, on a thursday. Blame it on the long school hours, numerous tests and writing we had to do.. But Eighteen Chefs baked rice with Andrea for dinner was most satisfying! ;)

It's ironic how the more silence we want on the inside, the more noisy we tend to be on the outside! Sometimes i feel as if my feelings are caught in a mesh, messy and complicated.... But a smile is all that's needed to untangle it back right.

Twistedturn has been up for approximately 5 months! :)

We can divide 44 by 2... And it's Grace birthday! :)

I was listening to Muttons To Midnight. It was hilarious.

Someone made a dedication to the A H S Family, so they were saying.. 'How do you pronounce A, H, S ???'

'ARSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.'

ROFL!!!

Life tends to get boring at some point of time. But i read the compo written to me by Elizabeth today. :) :) :) <3 It touched me at the back, and i got 'inspired' to write a note for somebody as well. I wished it was as happy and touching to read, but it ain't always a sunny day. However, so what? Something tells me that i have the ability to make it one despite whatever circumstances, esp to someone else. ^^

IT'S GOING TO BE A GREAT WEEK FROM THIS FRIDAY ONWARDS!! FOP. (Y)

AHS FAMILY

2008-07-31T21:18:00.002+08:00

LMAO. Muttons to Midnight is funny!

One ask the other, 'How do you pronounce AHS family?'

'ARSEEEEEEEEEEE.'

ROFLPIZZA!!!

AI ZAI.

2008-07-14T23:56:00.000+08:00

HAHA CHERINE you missed school today so you're going to have more emath and chem hw to do already!!! Anw i wonder if i woke you up this morn after Eileen told me about the spooky story........! :evil:

HANS! In the end i didnt do much at BK and really slacked even after i reached home! Hahaha.

I made a new friend today. But he actually asked me to GO AWAY. How MEAN!! Ok I need to sleep soon. Had a bad week, and today, all i wanted to say and convince myself was, 'it's the end'. I thank God there's those whoheard the cries from my heart! Haha ha.

I wanna go for the Nike Marathon! Any other interested parties besides Wj and I ? :cool:

Oops i havent spoke much about my days which wasnt exactly that bad. Apart from missing school for 3 days last week, Jiemeis went to Sentosa on Youth Day! Yesterday, Amelia, Andrea, Zt and I trained down to Boon lay to JW for Svc and had Subway at Jurong Point for lunch! We even got a kind man to take a pic for us embarrasingly heh. ; )

Hi Raymond I heard you did well for History this mid-years, CONGRATS!!!! :D

Still loved eating the crepes today though it meant more money spent! AI ZAI. Goodnight! :roll:

Boringgggg

2008-07-04T08:50:00.000+08:00

Now, i'm in school. Jiemeis are in school. Teachers are in schools. In fact, students are in schools. I'm bored. -.-

Pon-ners arent in school! It'll be my turn soon yay. We're getting back exam papers... Gonna get back more papers later... and more!!!

Xh was so funny this morn cos i was being told to remove my earsticks. He said, 'Ly dont emo, you see her ears covered up, you never know later inside also got a lot ...'

Jervis was another funny one. 'We should raise some kind of fund to buy beijing 101 voucher... That's more practical. ... Very mean meh?' cos they're raising funds for Youth Day Appeal so this random topic was brought in.

HAHA. Anw i think i'm becoming what i USED TO think Elissa was.... WITHOUT A CYBER LIFE!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

P.s. Elissa isnt w/o a cyber life!

Last day of MYE ~

2008-07-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

It's only the mid-years, but i study more than what i do in school. :(

But i get ecstatic each time a paper ends! DON'T YOU? Haha. 2 more papers, and 7-gonna-be-8 days of cabbing! Yeah, hoping you be nice, papers, teachers, cabbie drivers, friends, and more.
It had been days of Coffee Bean and Cafe Galilee, but I had Gelare waffles today! I am happy. =D

Goodnight!

Life & Friends

2008-06-12T00:44:00.008+08:00

I got to appreciate. I am really thankful to have a few really great friends; siblings, behind my back anytime. There are those who are readily here for me, and they arent faking about being a all-that's-needed-is-just-a-call friend. Just a msg and you give in to my selfish demands, you let me speak freely and swallow any rubbish i give. Here i am putting someone else in the first place wondering if they appreciate it or not, but on the other side you are doing just the same for me.

I wonder whether is it my life or everyone's life just as colourful. Red, yellow, black, gray, white, blue and more. Okay it's alright if you think i'm boasting about my life even though it's only been less than sixteen years.
Sometimes they say in life it's like an emotional rollercoaster. Sometimes it's boring. Sometimes it's enjoyable. But i love it all the same.

I love God. He gave me my life. Have you tried saying a prayer? It's feels good to know somebody's on the receiving end for me. And he's like a really great friend too, there anytime. :)

Heya

2008-06-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

DEAR ELISSA WONG IS BACK LAST NIGHT WELCOME MISSY WONG! :D

Felt like so long since i've last seen her nor heard her voice! She's got much to say now that she's back but lost her voice aww! AT LEAST SHE'S BACK SAFE AND SOUND AND THEY GOT GOLD! (: (:

B, THANKS FOR STUDYING OVERNIGHT AT THE AIRPORT WITH ME THOUGH I KNOW YOU WERE TIRED! <3 <3

CAUGHT NARNIA INSTEAD WITH LOUISA, ELIZABETH & ELIZE TODAY BECAUSE I SLIPPED UP IN CHECKING OUT THE TIMINGS.. I'VE MIXED 'EM ALL UP! MADE OF HONOUR WAS 1040 AT TM INSTEAD OF EHUB AND MY TIMETABLE IS GOING ALL ZXYACB?! SO YUP PRETTY NICE MOVIE I DIDNT FALL ASLEEP! GONNA GIVE NARNIA WITH PRI SCH MATES TMR A MISS. MMHMM. SEOUL GARDEN WITH ELIZE & ELIZABETH WAS ENJOYABLE ALTHOUGH ELIZE DISLIKES THE BORING FOOD (DESPITE HAVING BEEN THERE ONLY TWICE)! WE CYCLED TO CHANGI THOUGH NOT BY THE BEACH AS ELIZE WANTS IT. BUT IT WAS REALLY TIRING!!! THEN DARLING HAD TO GO, SO CYCLING BECAME RUNNING FOR ME SOON HAHA.

KUNGFU PANDA WITH BRENDA AND EILEEN LAST MORNING.... THERE'S PRETTY COOL TURTLE MASTER WU2GUI2 & SHI1FU2 & PO THE PANDA IN IT... IT WAS ANOTHER 1050AM EARLY MORNING MOVIE AT CINE! THEN BRENDA GOT TO TAKE HER PIC WITH THE EPL TROPHY WHICH WAS HAPPY HAPPY OCCASION THEN WE WENT TO SUBWAY AT PAYA LEBAR FOR LUNCH & TO COFFEE BEAN TO STUDY... THEN WE BOUGHT YOGHURT FROM SLURPS & SCOOPS THEN TO AIRPORT AND WHEW ELISSA'S BACK! YEP THIS IS ALL GOODBYE. (:

THANKS FOR MY DAYS ALL OF YOU! :-*

BLEHZXZXZXZ SORRY THERE'S NOTHING INTERESTING ALL MY POSTS ARE DAYS & WORDS ONLY. FEELING SUCKY LIKE THE WEATHER'S REALLY WARM OR SOMETHING. I CANT WAIT FOR CAMP! BUT I GONNA LAGGGG BAD IN CHEM THOUGH DONT WORRY ZOOTS I WONT GIVE UP THERE'S STILL HOPE!

13 MORE DAYS TO FIRST PAPER OF EXAMS JY<3! (:

A new day, another month.

2008-06-01T01:47:00.000+08:00

Another match’s over, 56-12!

Flag day with Eileen from 9am, our 5 pages of flags were totally bought and our tins were filled! Felt a little accomplished so we took a break. I rmb my tin was so heavy that my thumb and arms were aching and it slipped out of my hand and landed on the floor with a loud ‘bang’ … And the tin got dented. :(

I don't really care what i've been doing, cause they arent the right priorities supposedly. I'm looking forward to Starbucks with Eileen&Cherine on wed, I havent drank Cafe Mocha in a long time and the best thing I had today was the B&J Cheesecake brownies and Chubby Hubby i found in the fridge after i got home! Besides that Eileen and I had Ya Kun in the morning, I had a cheese ~~and mushroom~~ sandwich at the library for lunch and we tried the mudpie! Had kfc with Blaze mates (as can be called) after the match. Then, went home :)

Thanks for taking the time off to do Flag Day tgt with me Eileen! We shall join Ehren and all to do library cip soon. Miss ya all. Classmates, Ex-classmates, Teammates, Church, Family. Somehow it seems like a long time i havent been with many people, and if i cant even keep up with them now how could i in future? Sometimes, msgs from some really make my day glow. :D

I still like eating Turtle Soup, Drinking Milk Tea & having Gelare's Chocolate Chip Waffle. Dears, please remind me to start studying. Maybe you could ask me out over a cup of tea, or some of my favourite delights as listed above. I'm free in the last 2 weeks, except wed evening-sunday afternoon? Goodnight world. :)

(P.S. I've finished bull fighting long ago yay! And also the Freedom Writers Diary today. A book, is honestly good. It's better than working, better than eating.

Much much better.

I enjoyed the time at the library with Cherine & Eileen today, because of the funny OBS guy who keeps saying AHS and i wish if i stayed longer i could have had fun and display some constructive immature behaviour that was once around but hard to be found now

Flag day was fun because people are really interesting. If they dont have coins, they say they arent donating 'because they dont have shillings'. Hmmm, its understandable when ppl give you a slight shake of the head or a forced smile to indicate they arent donating. Also, it's understandable sometimes about people donating coins instead of notes, for not everyone is that rich to donate to every foundation big bucks all the time. However, sometimes the way people say it makes coins sound as if its the only currency that exists in the country. It’s weird, about how it sounds to be a currency matter, instead of a donation matter.

Well, at least they had the heart, though the action.. Failed? I've learnt from the Freedom Writers not to only focus on negative things though but i should talk about good. So anyway there's a really nice side of people. There were loads of generous and nice ppl who donates w/o hesitancy or even goes up to me just to make a donation! An example's Adeline, even though she was rushing for the train she donated a note of 5 bucks in straight and rushed off! Haha)

Time-consumed

2008-05-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

:D :D :D

Have been busy (working! $$$) and havent been watching my show nor using the comp but my sis wanna use it now otherwise i'll go online to chat!!! Gtg now to bathe. :(

Raymond has got a COOL hairstyle which i saw yesterday! But just saw that you've cut it off! All thanks to the bio lab teacher too right :( :(

I'll be back to update more! BYE GUYS!

Of trust and disappointment

2008-05-07T22:34:00.009+08:00

As I go through the days of my life, I realised.

Trust, really is a big deal. It is a huge component I need in my life. Something i must have towards the people i interact with, in order for me to feel secure and safe throughout.

Is it the same for you? Because I believe it's vice versa.

Do you find that sometimes, when talking to somebody, you prefer to listen to him/her than talk about something that is bothering your mind? Because you dont know if you could trust that person who's talking? And sometimes when you think you trust somebody, they end up blabbering elsewhere about something concerning you, that you thought him/her can keep to themselves?

So the question is, can I trust you?

Will you trust me? We can keep peace this way.

When we trust someone, all we expect is to not get disappointed by him/her.

Why? Because, i know the feeling of disappointment simply makes one feel downcast and rejected. When it is by someone you trust, these feelings seems to weigh a hundred times heavier. Thus I hope not to get it from you, albeit i know disappointment in life is an inavoidable cycle. Sometimes the people themselves don't mean for it to happen, and sometimes i myself am aware i cause it.

Man, is fallible. I am. Our weaknesses are pure and blunt, but it still takes time for us to see it. It is heartless. It doesnt care whether you show it or not, it still stays in you. Sometimes it appears in circumstances and you know it, yet sometimes you remain totally in an unconscious state. You can't predict when will it show, and how someone is affected by it or perhaps it triggered off something in someone, so that is bad. The probable occurance of causing disappointment and thus losing your stand in somebody's eye, is a weakness of ours.

This is when I link back to my life. I realised i 'chose' so many friends to trust initially, but after which, I also realised that the list had shrunk as the days went by. Why does this happens?

Xinling's April 25th post is good. Makes sense. :)

False pretence

2008-05-03T02:28:00.000+08:00

And 4 hours ago, I was still at kallang. While shortly before that I got news of something unbelievable! We're going to be in the same team with Cuixia, Olivia, Tanya, Pam & Huiyi too! Finally i see Jocelyn, Claudia, Yuxuan & Cheryl again after so long, it felt good playing with Yuxuan! And it felt like eons since i last touched a ball! :) (but i also felt that my stamina dropped!!)

But the real, best thing was, it was once more the same night training with Xinling, Alicia & Cihui. It's undeniably, great. ;)

Made it for 35mins of my qiang2 jian4 tonight!! Watched 2 episodes of dou niu after. Is there something wrong with me! I should sleep.

No way will I trust anyone else to protect me. Pack of lies. I miss the times where i could stand up for somebody i like. Now i guess i'm void of opportunities. Ughhh. Nvm, i am still strong and mighty! :) (RandoM!)

Happy 2-hours-after-2nd of May Belated Birthday Brother & Yuxun! I wonder when you might ever see this, but brother, i know you like our gift! :D

And it is SPC's birthday coming Sunday!
ANDREA's on Monday,
Raymond's on next Saturday!! :D

GOODNIGHT ALL!

I felt as if i almost lost my principle this morning.
Fight till the last whistle blows. Do you understand this?

Facade

2008-05-01T02:17:00.000+08:00

I had a WONDERFUL DAY!

Paper 1 for both english and chinese are over, I happily wrote a letter as a proposal and didnt know what in the fuxx to write for chinese!

Had been going downtown for the past 4 days and earned enough money to buy another present! :D

Bus-ed back from Bugis with Eileen and met a fuxxed up bus driver who wouldnt open the door for me and caused me to pay an extra 45c of bus fare!

Had Gelare waffles last night (half priced tues!) with Darryl and Sis (again!) and we each had 2 scoops of ice-cream, FOC! Fucking nice yet i'm so sick of it but am looking forward to having it again next week!

Queued for B&J with JMs, Geraldine & Jervis in the afternoon after school too on the 29th! IT WAS FREE CONE DAY! Yummy.

Milk tea ftw this week! Downtown, Ehub, my third home, and i dont give a fuxx bout anything else. ^^

I'm prepared to stay at home and regenerate myself tmr, (and watch dou niu yao bu yao!) unfortunately, i just found out grandma sprained her ankle. How can this be! No peace?! No way! :(

I want to be a sophomoric juvenile!!!!

IT WAS A LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY DAY!

Let me see, i saw Ziqi yesterday while running and Huayu today! Sometimes I see Glenn in the morning and sometimes I see Indra! What a small world, right? Hello friend, happy reading! Goodbye! :D

I think love can turn into hate, and i dont know why but i rmb since i was a young girl, a really young girl, i hated the word hate. And its contradicting but wait. Who cares what am i talking, for i don't. I got myself pulled into a mess, and it changed me. I cant blame anyone but myself can I? What you think is the best for me, is indeed the best. But if you can't keep it up and it turns out just as bad, thus it is no longer the best (for me). Do you see? Sorry, reader. I know its hard to keep you coming if im one who does not care about my writing. But just as well, this is it. Why not decipher a meaning for yourself within a post?

I'm fucking delighted! Thanks to my friends and anyone else for the 100 record-breaking 'patronage' to this blog on the 28th of April! Pardon me for the usage of unpleasant words if you wish, oh by the way, I discovered there's no meaning to it in an abyss of thoughts! Ain't I smart! ;)

Lesson learnt

2008-04-21T22:06:00.000+08:00

I made a trip down to Candy Umpire wanting to get some popping chocolate. Sadly, it was out-of-stock. Wanted to get some kinder surprise at fairprice. Sadly, it was probably not-in-stock... Wanted to get a box of ritter sport chocolate. Sadly, it was

OUT-OF-STOCK....

Okay at least this is Elize's lesson i've learnt. I cannot do things last minute. Elize's birthday on Wed, Elissa's on Thurs! <3

Darn. No, i cant sympathize myself. I am in a much fortunate state than others. Even though my heart shattered to a further million pieces today. Okay can't be that bad, probably just a hundred. It's common.

And a week passes!

2008-04-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

Today feels just like a Saturday; one of the saturdays i used to have. By the time i opened my eyes and got out of bed, it was noon. So school was like.. Forget about it.

Soon after, lunch was ready, then the day went on in a slow-moving pace. But it was different when i started playing bridge online! ~ and one hour was gone!

Went to catch Escape from Huang Shi with Sis. I thought it was good, for its a real-life account. At Nanjing, this journalist witnessed a massacre -the one where everyone was machine-gunned, good thing none of the horrifying rape scenes where we could find in books was shown-, saw his friend being shot right in the head, got captured and was going to be beheaded, but was saved. Then he carries on to be a great person, and yeah the story was more than this.

It's been long since i came online because i was either lazy to use the comp or was tired, sleeping. I havent missed out much i hope! BOO i failed amath test once more and i doubt i'll ever pass another trigo retest. @%!@*&%^# :(

It was just last thursday i was at simpang having prata with Peh & Edk. Oh and today's Edk's birthday! This was the pretty Nygh we've been to, and of course, the hostel was more of a wow than the school compound itself.

Friday, was the day Wj came riding on her bike to tmart where Eileen & I were studying at! Forgot to mention that we saw a pretty pink cab! Okay and saw a different guy at tmart than i did last year. Yup.

On Saturday, 蜡笔小新, Eileen & I went cycling! We rode a double bike and a single bike and took turns, which was fun until it rained! Went studying with Eileen & Cherine at whitesands library after. :D

Church on Sunday, and watched Cj 7 with mum at night!

Cafe Galilee again on Monday when Ivan and I went to study!

TEAM LUNCH/DINNER WITH COACH AT YUKIYAKI ON TUESDAY! Okay not really the whole team, since Wanqi and Yvonne weren't there. We got to make our own ice-cream! Though they taste a little over-milky or something. So yeah, Wj & I took a stroll back to simei from tanah merah after that and we played and talked at the fitness corner! We werent playing a fool nor loitering haha.
(photos from okaythankyou.bs)

Wednesday, whitesands library with Elissa before i went on with my normal routine.

This Thursday, -yesterday- was so long! Thanks Brenda & Eileen for waiting for me! Set foot to tamp, then took the shuttle bus to Ikea, enjoyed some meatballs, had some fun, before heading home! :D

Okay great, this is one week's update! The next week in school might need some Sour Power, once again...

Random sights in class, and some queer looking creature Cherine and I saw on a step at school.

Doesnt pictures makes blogging much easier? You wouldnt have to read anything! Tmr shall be another great day, the timings would all be like 3 weeks before. Just that the same things will not happen, again! K i'm irritated at fucker and faggort. This and that are the sibei guai lan language. Shall just let sis use now.

Do you play Viwawa? :D

Cry

2008-04-10T22:15:00.010+08:00

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
It never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone
I'm spinning 'round
And deep inside
My tears all drown
I'm losing grip
What's happening
I stray from love
This is how I feel...

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should have never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give it to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone
I'm spinning 'round
And deep inside
My tears all drown
I'm losing grip
What's happening?
I stray from love
This is how I feel...

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get hear with you
I'll never know
Never meant to let it get so personal
And after all I tried to do
To stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted
I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
All my life

I see a boy crying;
He didn't get the toy he wanted. He's kicking up a fuss. He wants attention. He's wailing.

I see a student crying;
He's stressed over academics. He need a breather. He wants to take a break. He's crying.

I see a friend crying;
He's got into some relationship problems. He's feeling hurt. He does not knows why he's crying.

I see a lady crying;
Her loved one has passed away.. And she's grieving. She's feeling the pain. She's crying.

I see a team crying;
They've won the championships. They're jumping/squealing with delight. They're crying, tears of joy.

If, you can see.. (I'm not a sexist, you can change He to She)

Tears isnt so hard to come by;

When you are upset over things which don't go your way, when you feel like a tight rubber band being overstretched, when you're heartbroken, when you've lost something that matters a lot to you; EVEN when you're over-excited..

This world is filled with emotions. Be it joy, anger, grieve, or happiness, you would want to experience a beautiful one won't you?

Everyone needs to feel love, wants to be loved, or want to love. So probably, tears existed to make you learn. Maybe there is something you can do to salvage some bitter situation; maybe you should stop seeking for attention but spend time with those you know are even lonelier within; maybe you should hold onto someone you're thinking of letting go; maybe you should start knowing how important is it to treasure everything around you.

Otherwise, all there is going to be in the end, is hurt..

This in turn, will only make you cry further. So now think,
Is that beautiful to you?

Remember, 'You aren't who you are without the things which you love.' -Xinling

Because it only tears me apart..

WOOHOO

2008-04-09T06:39:00.000+08:00

:D HAPPY BIRTHDAY CI HUI !!!!!!!!!! :D

Goodness sake, 6AM and usual taiji music is playing downstairs! Or is it not taiji but zaocao? Haha ha!

We started as individuals, yet came together to become someone.

2008-04-05T23:19:00.008+08:00

(Alicia Pe, Andrea Seet, Chang Wen Jia, Chia Xinling, Choo Wanqi, Geraldine Tung, Josephine Lawrence, Liu Juan, Louisa Sng, Tan Ci Hui, Yvonne Tan, Coach, me) We started off like this.

We were Secondary 2 netballers.

Hello, i've lived through a beautiful phase of my life;

Netball in my secondary school years.

PESS! Then Netball C div' 06 was my most memorable one of all. At the end of Sec 1, Louisa & I started playing the defence. I was noobish, I admit. Most of the times i did not know what I was doing. I just ran, i love the rhythm, i just threw, i just tried. I love the pattern of Keepers' throw-in which Louisa lobs to me, then I cross a lob over to Geraldine, she throws it to the attack, once Alicia gets the ball, we walk back.

'Chop', and in the shot goes. Ci Hui gives me an eye-contact once in awhile, indicating our tactic. And I get to run again. :)

TKGS, our toughest deemed opponent for us over the seasons. We either tied or lost to them, which didn't look good. We went through matches with fluctuating performances yet entered top 4 like a breeze. It was, amazing. Until we lost to TKGS again, and met Damai.

During that period of time our performance was going downhill probably at a speed of 1000km/h. It was shit, we lagged behind bad during that match. Coach walked out on us. The crowd was looking. Even my sis was watching. First quart, and I fell. Blood was flowing down my shin that the umpire had to call for time for me to clean my wound. I know your heart must've quivered each time i fall, team, how much anxiety uphill and down i must've caused. Yet i felt so numb each time i fell, to the extent i didn't even know I was bleeding. It hurts, yet i just beat it off, and only realise the the extent of my wound after the game.

That was me, team. One who didn't really know what I was doing, nor what was happening. We caught up by 8, yet lost by 2. It was too late, it was the first time i ever cried for netball. This was the time i started to understand what was happening. Yet our team was falling out with one another. And soon, my first Nationals ever, was over, just like that..

We're going onto Secondary 4.

It was a training day, in the stadium after training. Xinling and I were making a decision on whether to join Blaze or not. I did not know why that thought struck me. All I knew next after inter-league by the end of sec 2 was that I was so into netball, that i wanted to do better for my team.

Secondary 3, WanQi didn't make it for the team. I see Xinling & Alicia's heart dropped, through the distressed expression on their faces.. We've started feeling for one another. I see, and I saw, through everyone of us. We went to coach. Blahblahblahblahblah... ... ...

Secondary 3's season stopped soon. At least we had LeeCheng, who did not let us down anytime. She was a pretty good captain, even though she's my sister and i might be a biased source. But truly, I've seen her fought hard for all games despite her lack of sleep and the dis-improving stamina she has. Never once did she not hold on until the end of a game. That through her, i found a spirit which deserves commendation.

Once again, i've learnt.

And this year.. Was so important. We knew we had a certain standard, that we were going to be capable of something good. I sprained my ankles countless times, till the sinseh uncle recognises me, till everybody uses the word 'again?!' on me, till my mother says how stupid i am, till i bought a $36 ankle guard and borrowed another one from coach, but apparently some times it didnt help too...

PRCS game. Many of the sports class people came! And so did Raymond. WE WON, AND ENTERED TOP 4! WHEN WE NEARLY LOST IT ONCE MORE, WE CREATED A MIRACLE. WOOHOO. :)

It was the Semi-finals. I didnt play. I sprained my ankle the day before. I walked past Eugene. He knew what had happened. It was the evening. And I was smsing Elize. I called mum, waited for her to be back wishing that she could bring me to the sinseh. 6pm zoomed to 8.50pm already so i asked sis if she could accompany me instead. She wanted to go bathe first so by 9pm, mum came home and cabbed me there. I felt so, so comforted. That night, Raymond & Daryl messaged wishing me luck. Alicia & Cihui asked if i was alright. Can play? I said I was. Can. Must. I said thanks for the luck i'll definitely try my best..

It was the next morning. Ouch... My bandaged ankle lifted on the pillow over the night was aching. I tried to step out of bed early that day. 'I have a game, i'm going to play..' I psycho-ed that into my head. One step, and another.. I limped to the bathroom. Getting ready to take on the day's challenges.

I asked Cahyo if she could buy me my breakfast. I felt like a cripple. I woke up early, before 6.30, hoping I could catch a cab before 7. So I left house a little past 6.50am, carrying my tumbler, shoebag, icebox, which shouldnt be hard by right.. Yet I was struggling. Because I needed support.

'Cahyo, i'm sorry but can you go down to the bus-stop with me?' I felt like such a weakling.

7am, i finally made it to the bus-stop. I took more than twice or thrice the time needed than usual to make it there. Furthermore It was raining so the cab fare was expensive. In 1 night and 1 morning, i've spent at least $50...

So I made my way to the canteen, where 4 people were there.. 'How's your ankle? Are you okay?' 'How are you going to play?'

'Yes,' the opposite, I thought. 'Playing..' It's hurting like f***.

Then.. Nothing happened. I felt transparent after. For the first time in my life i felt so alone while having people right beside me.. (Details are trying to be deleted from my memory so no further elaboration)

In class: 'Lee Ying, you're going to play!? How are you going to play? I dont think you should.'

Not only 1, but 2, but 9, & more of the same thing..

'No, it's my game, an important one...' Sorry JMs, I broke down. Thank you for your note Cherine, because.. I had been crying like mad.

It was going to be warm-up. *Spray spray spray, pray pray pray*

*Running ..* Thinking: 'Someone please break my leg' . Talking: 'Hold on' *go spray more*

Before the game.. To Xinling: 'I think I might not be able to play.'

Xinling: Then tell coach.

Coach: Then Jingying play GK, Louisa GD.

Team talk: One player down~

I sat. And cheered. Yet what was running through my head was, *Can I try?* No, I did not get a chance.

I dont see why i deserve the blame, because I can confidently say, as long as a team has a strong attack and treasures every single center pass and put the shot in, winning will never be a problem.

But.. I got unhappy faces over the next 2-3 days. And Elize, you were the only one who did not give up on me.

During this time, it was good time to reflect. It suddenly dawned upon me to think about why I was playing for. I thought it was for my team. For my coach, they who gave me the passion for this sport. But it seemed like i was so wrong. Something then had hit me so hard, so bad, that i found it so hard just to stand back up on my feet again. As if a wall by my side that used to make me feel so secure just came crumbling down. And I got stuck as i lost my sides and am struggling on my own.

Over~ And finals are here. *Much better ankle now, though aching a little and jumping less high.* I thought. No feelings, just an activity to make up for the time and money i've spent. Yup, what else did matter? We won PLMGS by the way, I thought only my defence side mattered because it was what i had in netball and was built up in. So during this period i was so numb.

Then so many things happened.. Our relationship with coach was like a roller coaster ride as all of us were undergoing some emotional state. Then the last game, Coach did not come because she was sick, nor did Louisa came, Elize was injured.. So it ended up with 10 + Rongzhen on a Saturday morning.

And was that the last of Kallang? I cried. Because I realised I did feel so much for all.. I did.. That I became so so numb.. That I was unable to believe that all these which had happened has come to an end.. That I cant believe now about how mnay times I've thought of giving up, but there used to be at least some One who'll pull me back.. But now it's over. I cant believe how many times through netball i've seen some light, dimmed then brightened, dark then lighted again. Yet now.. This light has diminished..

Then I realised this light had been a part of my flesh, that once it's gone, a part of me dies, and i'll rephrase something which Xinling said, 'you'll never be who you are without the things which you love.'

Then I had been feeling just like a lifeless soul recently..

天无不散之宴席.

Stadium, a place where i've found peace with during my first 2 years in AHS. The top corner where netballers placed their bags always feels like a territory, giving me a feeling as if i belonged. To think the school once made me feel like home because of the stadium. I could always go there knowing i would find someone i know, yet now.. During the next 2 years, these feelings gradually faded.. As we were being 'disliked', relationships faded as people & people aint as close anymore.

Nevertheless, you people have left an indelible mark on my heart. Sports class people who used to label the G class as the branches, the chalets, netballers, shuttlers, bballers, tt-players.. I'm pretty sure these memories are hard to lose.

(Alicia Pe, Chia Xinling, Choo Wanqi, Geraldine Tung, Tan Ci Hui, me) And the last game ended off like that.

Oh Elize, you're special and this post is between me and my batch. And this is general that specific ones.. Perhaps.. When the time isnt so late in the night like now it'll just come out of me again. It's been 3 hours.

Alphabets in life

2008-04-04T23:22:00.006+08:00

And we all live in a realm of superficiality;
Being forced to make decisions;
Confused over which choice to make;
Don't know if we should go on or step back;
Even entrusting our lives to some we never know if we could be sure of;
Falling and wondering if anyone will catch you;
Game of life, is this called?
Having to differentiate between the right and the wrong;
Inside your own world, is it empty or filled?
Joy, is it heartfelt?
Knowing the feeling of betrayal, how does it feel?
Love truly exists, or?
Manipulation of mankind becomes real?
Name and money becomes a problem?
Only fame and glory brings you some meaning to life?
Pride becomes of importance?
Quests of life are hard to find.
Reminiscing innocent childhood times,
Songs that tell of broken love;
Together, will it even makes a difference?;
Un-doing 'life' just seems impossible
Versus yourself now.
Wonder is over, action is here
X can become ticks in the next test, so learn.
Your life, not others.

How would you like to conclude the last letter, Z?

Zzz, or Zest? (:

2008-03-06T22:33:00.003+08:00

16 April 2006
23rd May 2006

I was reading 2 months of my archives yesterday when I noticed these 2 days.

I haven't been crying so much over just one thing in my life, I thought the most I could ever cry over something only adds up to an hour. Apparently it's not that way. You can't leave me alone, I cry, and cry. I hope I ain't sinking into depression, like Yang Peng says. It just pressurises me too much.

On 7th May 2006, I once said, 'I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD, 某人.'

Where is all the strength, the motivation and the confidence I once had? I'm searching for it, to find it back, and i'm still in the midst of the process. I remember Cherine once said, 'There's a line between fantasy and reality. And i'm still hovering over it.' I am so confused, and it makes me cry even more to know there's actually someone who cares yet they can't understand that my heart's in turmoil.

So, how long do people take to get over things? 9 more months to go, and i'm over it. Everything. Never once more am I going to expect people to be there for me all the time. I am going to be even stronger, and I'm definitely putting up a strong front. Hey Elize, I am fine.

Random.

2008-02-22T23:47:00.001+08:00

I like to dream, but before I dream, can you remind me that I have to pass reality? That my dreams only come true in reality?

I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do

2008-02-18T16:20:00.000+08:00

It is currently 4.37AM. Looks like i've shou ye on the wrong day... Oh I watched Kungfu dunk just! It wasn't as lame as I thought it might be, the plot was rather good and it wasn't all about bball. It taught me about teamwork and some parts were..kinda touching? Hmmm sometimes I feel as if i'm immune to touching scenes in movies already haha. I like the number 11! He looks pleasant and good to me ha ha ha. And I got the bottle!!! L o l.

Don't war and separation in real life upsets you more?

Text Message Sent:
Ly 'Happy Chinese New Year Godma!'

Jane '我跟你们已经没有关系了不要再叫我了'

On this CNY, it looks like I've severed ties with my aunt. To think, in just some time i would be officially part of the adult class. Yet they really leave me in bewilderment sometimes. -.-

Lengthy posts just does not suit in here.

Wait, for awhile I thought i love myself too much to be reprimanding myself

2008-02-10T22:07:00.000+08:00

Today wasn't much productive. I woke up feeling dull...

JM 4'S POWERFUL HORMONES STRIKES!

hahaha.

Tried to do something happy. So i tried baking. Well, nothing beats the satisfaction of having somebody praising you for your effort! Thank you for your msg tinGz. You sure know me well. <3

So besides baking, chatting with Vinia, going for a run, reading chem, tried my math for 1 and a half hours, ate CNY goodies and drank 2 packets of green tea in the process, failed solving the questions, I didn't seem to have done anything else today.

Chatting with Vinia through her Webcam!

Random snapshot!

This is my mother. Is there a resemblance?

How about how rarely do I get to take a picture with my brother? ;)

What a distant feeling...

My Kungfu Dunk ball and Netball<3 !
Watching I Not Stupid 2... So touching... :(

I like/love Darling. I like/love Elize. I like/love Netballers. I like/love Jiemeis. And thanks for telling me I can call you anytime Zoots / Ivan. <3

Some friends are there to listen to you. At the same time some friends are there for you to listen to.

What a jerkass you are, ly. There you go rejecting others breaking their hearts as if theirs aint as fragile as yours. You'd better be sorry and remorseful about it. -_-

But I really couldn't help it that ALL I WANT NOW IS JUST A MOVE AHEAD IN LIFE!

Ly changed. Everytime you broke her heart. Or make her cry. All it did was it added another layer of coat on the outside of me. Tonight, Ivan gave me a wake up call. But it isn't enough. I'm not refreshed enough. YET.

Something better next time. Soon, I'm certain. That's me. I have a feeling that something's gonna delight me soon. Though I don't know what.

lly (LLY)

2008-02-08T12:32:00.000+08:00

It is currently the Eight of February 2008, 2.38AM.

I once whined to Brenda about how bored I was. She said, 'you are Leeying leh. how can your life be boring?!' Let's do a self-assessment.

I am critical. I can be determined. If I am interested, i go for it. That is typical. I need encouragement constantly. I'm not pragmatic. I don't know how to be. I enjoy taking my own sweet time. But I love responsibility and would really want to try treating pressure as a challenge I can overcome myself. (provided I dont get defeated and turn to someone for help) If I really like you, I'd always do my best within my ability for you. I don't care if you are purely fooling me or not. My life and soul is built upon people whom I have beside me. My heart is pieced by every individual who has impacted my life. My mind is adapted to how the people around me react. However, I dont seem like a people's person. I am not perfect. One negative thing I am aware about myself is that just because I like to learn from past experiences, I take a long time to get over the past.

I enjoy life. Really do. Family. I love them for what we've gone through. Friends. They come and go. I feel blessed to have some who are still by me after years or separation, such as ks, eunice, yishu, leonard soh, ivan.. I wish it works the same way for my team mates, ll, JMs, Zoots, Darling, Favourite person, brother, etc... Hey, everyone has their faults. Just because of one and you're giving up on me? Wait no. You probably gave up on yourself first instead. It makes me feel bad. You're no longer talking to me just because i'm not talking to you. I know you've tried. But I am tired. I've withdrawn myself. From you. I no longer have the excess energy to try. Now it's become I-dont-know- what. This is a part of life called 'being puzzled'. I need someone whom I want to be there 24/7 for and someone who wants to be here 24/7 too. Or I need someone who I want to give 3/8 and he gives me 3/8 back in return. My life is a cycle theory, regarding people. Am I calculative?

I wish I held little arguments in my forebrain at all times about all the matters in life. I used to do that during free time, but now I've been telling myself that I am simply too tired to bother. It led to a term called 'slack' by the way. I think a lot you know. Regarding every matter, I think about the consequences. LONG-TERM CONSEQUENCES. My thoughts go through a long process and yet i only love to recount the ending. One point about me I knew from the start is that I tend to be realistic. I never love narrative and I dont see why should i not get straight down to the point rather than adding 'flowers and twists' to my words, although i feel it does succeed its entertainment purposes, IN AN ESSAY.

School has exhausted my brain juice. I get so lazy to learn nor study. Probably because it's the tournament season. I'd rather play ball than study, like during the holidays. I think i am capable of better results. I can be confident. But yeah, continue thinking leeying. You always do the wrong things at the most important and critical time of your life. Thankfully, you've got luck. Although not all the time. All along your school years you've had backing. You know it. But when you went to work, life took a change. Major one. You met even difficult people you've never seen before. Faced even tougher responsibility you wished you never took. You learnt to juggle and struggle with life. Your mindset changed. You added a few more lines to your eyes, and probably wrinkles to your face. You cried. Didn't you? Sometimes you don't understand why. Yet you had grown stronger and understood that besides the bad times there are good times.

Sometimes, I may appear indifferent. However I am not oblivious to things around me. I am sensitive, in a way that your behaviour affects me. Appear nice to me, I will be nice towards you. I like people who returns me a smile. To me, it's never difficult. I forget things fast. Especially unhappy happenings, really really fast. I don't instill your words into my head unless you are someone who is close to me. I might have taken things for granted, regardless of how much I've tried not to. Sometimes I appear pessimistic, but it takes me just one night's rest to become optimistic. I love the dawn. I love peace and comfort. I love light and warmth. I usually feel fine being alone or in a group. Overall, there is something about me which makes me feel that I am different.

I forgive myself for my errors and try not to repeat them. I once made a mistake in life that sometimes I wish I could start anew elsewhere. That might make me no different from others. But the bottomline is, I like myself for who I am. In a way that makes me feel different.

So will you give me credits for that, and like me too?

this post is about myself, school, netball, and my family, and maybe to some

2008-01-05T08:59:00.000+08:00

Ok.. Here's a morning post for 2008. Also before I start regular posting on my other blog.

This is a new year. And this year is an important year. Because of the O levels, and more. I'm back with 4K and my Jiemeis, a lovely lot to have. But at the same time, I hate my seating arrangement. Being so near to the window gives me the tendency to get distracted cos I can't see the whiteboard properly. And I would always be on the verge of falling asleep, especially during Ms Lim Geok Lian's AMath lesson. There's no one suitable around me I can start teasing or laughing with, no Elissa behind to turn to and talk with, so it's just boring. I realised how I can start making all sorts of commotion in class, (which makes me feel really noisy) yet probably i'm just struggling to keep myself awake.

I'm back to approximately 5 hours of sleep each weekday, which is torturous. These shall be the first details about school.

Tournaments are nearing. There was a friendly with BukitPanjangGovernmentHighSchool yesterday, but it rained during our second quarter & the game stopped and got postponed. We, didn't play as well. Both divisions.

The team results were out on wednesday, which I felt coach really had a hard decision to make. Yesterday, I talked to Ci Hui. Which made me ponder, makes me worried. Sometimes I really wonder why am I playing despite being so clumsy? Counting the amount of times I've sprained my ankle.. Louisa is right. If I don't do something to it I gonna break my leg even before the end of the tournaments.

Aunt Annie & Uncle Steven fetched me to AMK again last night with mum & Jia Ming, even though it was their anniversary. Thinking it over, even though they complained about how troublesome I was, wasting my time playing netball, always injuring myself and giving the what-kind-of-ball-am-i-playing-its-pointless-thing again, but I guess they did care. They settled dinner over there for they actually waited for me to be back after I had mine with the netballers, then Uncle & Jiaming actually peeled prawns for me!

I am just one lucky little kid. (:

Considering my own matters. This year I have many resolutions. They aren't minor ones to me this time. Not those such as growing slimmer or whatsoever, but for the team, for 4K, for myself, I am going all out for it. SO if anyone dares ruin it, I will make you guilty for life.

I am so childish.

I found a person in school having my adidas shoe. I got so worked up at first, pouring out all sorts of vulgarities, even going to the extent of hating her even though I don't know her. I thought that she didn't look a least bit sweet-looking nor pleasant. But after last night, I felt i was being really unreasonable and mean. So I'm going to brush it across and consider it as a bad first impression.

What really matters most this time is the team. For those who got in as the main 12, we have to really start treasuring every time we have on court. If it does not matter to you, can you please start thinking of the other 6 who might be running their lungs out, sweating like a pig, getting knocks too. In B div you can't stop running just because you are tired. You'll most likely end up hogging an empty space. And you have to bother trying to get an overstretched pass from your own team mates all the time no matter what, as every possession would really matter, especially during tight games. But well, i am probably only referring to a few cases sometimes.

The ultimate goal for all is always to ensure the shot gets in, 100% defence, no loose passes, being able to take pressure. If a game is tight, you can jolly well tell how good both attack sides are. And who wins in the end? The one who can put the most goals in, not even giving it a chance to get converted, unless you can assure you'll get the rebound. That's for the shooters.

With every center pass, every rebound possible taken from the defenders, to ensure every ball gets passed down smoothly, no careless mistakes made but with the stamina & determination supporting our attack and defence side. That's for our dearest Mid-court.

For every tight games to fight for, to force mistakes and apply pressure and get any lost ball back, to read the game to follow the players to prevent the shooters from getting near the pole and putting the shot in, that is for us, the defence.

This is the team. If you don't know how important each responsibility is, how do we progress? Let's work hard team, especially to my batch mates. I know how much we want this year back badly. This is also for coach, the last year, and for the person who pisses us off so much, we gonna convert all the anger into energy!

Last night I felt again mum really loves us. Mum and Father went off together early this morning, and will be back 5 days later! While I promised to stay at home and take care of my ankle. I am worried, but I guess they are too. With the condition of my thumb and ankle.. Maybe after this tournaments, it marks the end of my netball career, probably.

I admit, I am just like one little baby who needs to be well taken care of. And if you do something wrong to me or something i dislike, I will not like being near you and cry and try making a fuss, yet probably after awhile i'll forget, and everything will start, afresh.

Sometimes, you may think you are in search of happiness all your life, but you just don't know that you are already in it. Actually, I am really blessed.

Last thing to mention before I end this off, I have shifted my blog domain.

First Day of being a Secondary Four

2008-01-02T23:15:00.000+08:00

This is rubbish, I am actually falling sick and my homework still remains, undone. Eugene is no longer the monitor, i'll miss him! :(

New year day was good, with all the food. First day of school and assembly was boring. Yet I had a great time slacking at Andrea's place after school. Sleeping on the bus was way too good. Thankfully I woke up right on time so i did not miss my stop.

Pls take care Andrea! <3

I owe all my mood swings to being a woman, i assume. I really love those who peel my prawns for me or peel the meat off chicken wings for me to eat. I think I am really like a big kid, for now.

shu. kanasai says:
lols lax la darling
shu. kanasai says:
if need relax
shu. kanasai says:
can ask me for sex for stress relieve
Lol this is typical to expect from one at a boys school right haha. Our dear Yishu is a joker as usual.

This time i'm sure if you're younger than me and am not taking things seriously, i will tell YOU off. And sometimes I really wish the school has less of those who are biased. So fucked up la. (not me)

& people don't care how much you know until they know how much you care

2007-12-31T00:14:00.000+08:00

THANKS SO MUCH DARLING & ROCHELLE, FOR THE COOKIES & SWEETS ESPECIALLY CAUSE I FORGOT TO BRING MONEY FOR DINNER! HAHA AND THE MASSAGER FOR THE PILLOW FOR MY ANKLE. <3

AND THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE MSG tinGz, I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH!

2007 HIGHLIGHTS

1st movie of the year with Alicia & 2G guys! (:
B Div 07 tournaments
Midnight movie with Clare on New Year! (:
Back to CHC
Piano
3K
Jiemeis
Student Camp!
Uncle Swee (Wei How)
Netballers <3
Overnight studying at Airport
Work at Ikea
Escape!
Favourite Person
LouiS
Team mates
ZOOTS
BEL
Sec 3.

Goodbye, 2007!

2007-12-29T23:53:00.001+08:00

Why did last night turned out like that?

Yes, I did, love you... I hope..

It's fucking long since I had a nightmare.

You can Click Here.

2007-12-26T23:58:00.000+08:00

I am sorry that I fell asleep while Graci & tinGz were over, yesterday evening.

Happyyy Boxing Day.

Thank you Xinling, Louisa, Wen Jia, Ks, Jinfa, Gf, Zoots(L) , Brenda, Cherine, Graci, Aunt for the gifts!

Tomorrow wouldn't be the time to be prepared to die and go all out.
(Cause I'll definitely sprain my ankle again if I do)

TIME TO SLEEP. I HATE MY RECENT HEADACHES.

SEASON'S GREETING

2007-12-25T02:09:00.000+08:00

I would like to wish

Mum Dad Sister Brother
Alicia Pe
Andrea Seet
Tan Ci Hui
Geraldine Tung
Graci Foo
Louisa Ann Sng
Choo Wan Qi
Chang Wen Jia
Chia Xinling
Yvonne Tan
Tan Zhu Ting
Isabel Look
Grace Wu
Natalia Wong
Josephine Lawrence
Leonard Soh
2G06 people
Raymond
Yu Xun
Hua Yu
Ming Swee
Ryan
Pandora
Chun Kit
Wei Bin
Jing Lu
W115
ELIZABETH CHOO
ROCHELLE
CHERIE
AMANDA PE
KELYN PHUA
3K
Theong Li Han
Brenda Chong
Cherine Teh
Elissa Wong
Eileen Cheong
Eugene Peh
Jervis Xu
Lim Min Le
Tan Xuan Hao
Fiona Heng
Lee Hui Ling
Eunice Goh
Jonathan Tan
Tony Chen
& ALL THE REST
ELIZE
JAMIE
JING YING
KELLY-ANNE
HUI TUAN
AMANDA TAN
LI XUAN
NATALIE
CHIMIN
JOSHUA
SAMUEL
YINA
ZOE
Siow Ler Ling
Irene Tay
Clare Lim
Kheng Soon
Tan Yi Shu
Chua Jin Fa
Adeline Pang
Botin
Jie Hui
Vanessa
Edmund Tan
Teo Liang Kai
Loh Teng Rui
Ivan Teo
Valentino
Ian
Li Meng
Yi Cheng
Ben
Jasper
Hong Kai
Ch
Wei How

(although i'm sure not all of them comes here)

& also to all the rest who do but am not listed,

A MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!! :)

(AND DON'T GO TO ORCHARD AT NIGHT...)

Darling, this is for you! <3

2007-12-22T16:48:00.001+08:00

Please take care while during overseas, have a fun Christmas, and PLEASE PLEASE get into AHS cause I would love to see you around!!!!!

See you on the 27th, & i'll take care of myself! <33333333333333333

:D

2007-12-21T21:24:00.001+08:00

Along with the pain in my ankle with every step I take, what was really terrible was the headache. It was like,

JUST

kill me.

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Horrible.

Anyway for everytime I open my eyes during that long bus trip home, all I hear is Cihui's voice, along with Elize and Geraldine's comments. And I was more than half-asleep...

If not for my mother I dont think i'll ever survive this life. & Thanks for being the one to help me up today, Louisa! <3

I cant imagine what my father's going to say. He's like Mr Mok, so straightforward and capable of making you feel guilty. Okay forget about it. I'm sure i appear strong to you. Physically or mentally. I am. I was just an idiot to go for that ball perhaps... ..

Anyway if you think i get oh-so-emotional nearly all the time I think you are wrong. All it takes is just some time, before for everything I get upset about, I manage to find 10 other things which makes me feel that life is so wonderful.

Can't believe i'm telling myself to go for work tomorrow. But I just realized i can barely walk. Sigh. I feel like crying tonight but i'd probably fall asleep first. Luckily I know I would be fine 2 days later cause I would go see the doctor. Goodnight!

6 more days to Christmas!

2007-12-19T00:41:00.000+08:00

Now's considered wednesday, so tomorrow's the christmas party and 23rd would be Escape while 24th will be with the Jiemeis then it'll be Christmas! ZOOTS & BEL I MISS YOU 2 LOTS! :(

Louis, please take care of your hips and Cihui, I hope your ankle gets okay sooooon! I like Elizabeth Choo! <3

Next, is my timeline.

Today, is one of the most fruit-less day ever.

Being one of the free days (that rarely come about this hols), Aunt called me in the morning at 10am to go help her out. Like ^!&*(#@&^!(@*&# I need to sleep and today was meant to be homework, cards drawing, dvds & my sisters day!!!!!

But yeah, dragged myself out of bed and I cant believe in an hours' time i was having breakfast and leaving house. Well in less than 2 hours I was tired and went to rest. I was enjoying all the free food and drinks, and after which I got $ and a ride back!

Yet by the time I reached home I tried to do the cards. But I was so frustrated I crashed nearly all the paper i had bought and threw them all around my table. So now it's practically like a pile of junk AND I'VE DONE NOTHING. Ughhhhhh.

Dinner at Tiong bahru with some of my relatives and mum. Oh well, it was pretty enjoyable and so I went off to meet my dearest sister and Lewis at 9.30. By then nearly all the shops at City Hall was close already lah. Sianzzzz. Tried the peppermint mocha at Starbucks and only Mango was still open. So by the time i was home it was near 11.30. How boring.

On Saturday; After work, went to meet Cihui and Xinling to get our Christmas exchange gift! What Shirley told me that day practically lifted my heart of a million stones. Okay what rubbish. But thankfully, the thought of going to meet Cihui and Xinling then made working much easier cause I had something to look forward to. Phew.

Dinner with dad and mum, after which Favourite person and I went for coffee at Starbucks! We just sat down there and talked for about 2 hours, before we realized we should go home and furthermore we're having our carnival the next day. Once again, it was about 11.30 when I got back! But it really reminded me of Alicia and I who did the same thing 2 years ago! Haha. (:

Sunday; Year-end-Carnival & Blaze AGM! We got to play with teams like Extremes, Blaze 1, XNIJ, etc, and Cihui injured her ankle! So I had to play C cause we only had 7 players! But Huifen was really encouraging, and... That day was long as we spent at least 12 hours at Kallang, got sunburnt and.. Blaze AGM went on pretty great but coach has a really bad sore throat!

Sent Cihui home, and bought tape. This day was actually fruitful, and I know I'll miss Cheryl, Yu Xuan, Jocelyn & Jia Hui!!

Monday; Friendly with Crescent Girls! Thanks for trying to help me tape my thumb, Geraldine and Lou! It felt great playing with both Louisa & Geraldine after so long, I did enjoy it after awhile. But i start feeling like i'm tofu, I could get knocked so easily!

So I brought Ci Hui to Angmokio, along with Xinling & Geraldine! Thankfully your ankle's feeling better now Cihui, i'm looking forward to Friday's friendly where you'll get to play again!

Met mum, went home for dinner, then went to eastpoint with my dearest sister cause she wanted to go do her medicure and pedicure and asked me along... Which I wasnt interested but just because she ate the sausage I didnt want to eat for me. . . So I bought a cone with 3 scoops of New Zealand Ice-cream and waited. 2 hours. Long and omg... Never mind. It was after 11 when she was done, so to home we went, and by the time I washed up and finished talking on the phone, I collapsed on my bed.

:)

2007-12-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

Wow, this is post 400!

I really like Jia Hui, she looks so kind, and it makes me feel bad when i'm not there for her... Actually, all the friday nights for the past few momths are pretty alright after all. Especially when the season's nearing, I realised it actually had some good for me. (:

It's been a week. I AM PREPARED FOR TOMORROW.

(OR RATHER, GETTING PREPARED STILL)

Cool manzxzxz, gna chiong again! Another busy week to come, and I believe thursday will be awesome! Coach is right, dont need to train so much as long as the training's productive lorsssss. Especially during this rainy season and we get treated like dogs. You really suck.

ANW, Thanks for asking LouiS! Love you a plenty.

And thanks for the msg last night, favourite person in the universe! Thanks for caring. <3

Those whom you really care for might not be the ones who are there for you eventually, yet those who are there for you might not be the ones you cared as much for. It's ironic.

Love my girlfriendsss Brenda, Cherine, Elissa, Eileen, Lihan, Graci, Cihui, Xinling, Alicia, Wenjia, Geraldine, Wanqi, Andrea and my dearest family who has always been the most capable one of making me feel much better, especially when i'm in no mood of talking.

And i'm most thankful to Geraldine, whom I realised she always listens to me like this:

"Argh Geraldine, I'm sad."
"Why!"
"Cause that time right, @*&^#@*(#$&()!*@_)!#@!!! Then right, !*@^!@(#(#$*@#*@&$(*."

It's been a year and still you're doing that for me. Love you, my WD. (:

Cherine, gei wo ni de ai! (Next, smile like Elissa did) :D

Elissa & Jiemeis, imu!

2007-12-14T01:02:00.000+08:00

And it was ever since that day did I realise that it isn't everybody whom you think you can count on is really there. Nothing much really matters anymore, ever since I realised I was nearly alone, from that day. 2007? I've enough of the fictitious face of others, so real one moment, so fake the other, so real again next moment, and in the end, you don't know which is which.

I can't sleep. Sigh.

We missed everything, daydreaming

2007-12-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

I found out that if i'm feeling troubled,

1. Find someone to talk, even if he/she doesnt understands how you feel, as long as they listen, it helps.
2. Practise 'detachment'.
3. Spend money.

MY DEAREST BROTHER GOT ME A BEAR!

Zomg just came into my head, and it reminds me of how Liangkai said it. Imagine if Zlol is the new craze. That will be funny. Zlololol.

So, this is one of the most important parts:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

MY DEAREST GERALDINE!

HAPPY FIFTHTEEN,

HAPPY KNOWING YOU FOR GOING TO 3 YEARS,

HAPPY HAVING YOU AS MY TEAMMATE,

I LOVE YOU STILL, GERALDINE! <3

Why is it that as we grow, the way we perceive things changes? The amount of pressure and responsibility we give ourselves also increases. Yet thing is, are we also growing mentally? Sometimes a change is better, however, sometimes it isn't.

Oh, have I mentioned about how we were being treated like dogs? Just a whistle, then we take a command and go. Does your school makes you feel as if there's nothing worthwhile in there? I need to rest, goodnight.

2007-12-12T13:39:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since i've had such a long sleep, and I proved to myself one can go without food for 24 hours.

Monday, went to queensway with Lou & her mum, where I bought my adidas and asics shoes! After which joined cihui, lk and qianye as they came too, then went for the chalet.

(Thanks for bringing the ball and shoes back for me, Cihui!)

Mahjong with ll, Yishu, Guifeng and Jinfa was great fun, so was playing murderer with some of the others. Heart attack with Eunice and some of the guys practically scared me out of my wits! Though we're all 15 already but it's great we're still talking.

Tried sleeping at 12 and I managed to 3 hours later, because of the talks and noise we made in the room, especially with Yishu and Tamim around. I must've given Yishu, ll, Eunice and Jinfa a really uncomfortable sleep, sorry! :(

Thanks ks for the gathering. (:

At 6, got up and tried to get the rest for breakfast. Most had left so i got ks, Leonard, Eunice, Jinfa, Yishu and Tamim to come along as Guifeng and ll went to the redhouse. After I finished my sausage mcmuffin i left, and went to meet the netballers as we sat on the train all the way to queenstown again.

Amanda Pe has really nice shoulders to sleep on! I slept half the journey! (:

Friendly with St Margs as it drizzled then stopped raining.. Still, we have to do better. Few of us ended red though the sun only shone for a little while, and we had lunch back at queenstown, and I went home, then to work.

Shirley and I had been the unluckiest pair ever. Just recently, trouble keeps arising. I wish i could say I can't take it any longer. Alright, i'm off for training. Then piano. Then Geraldine's birthday tomorrow. And work..

Anyway last night i got home being in such a foul mood that father got fed up with me that i'm not changing my number anymore as we don't give a fuck about it.

2007-12-09T18:08:00.000+08:00

Zerooneone@Lj

Thursday; Bbq
Friday; Blaze
Sat; Work
Sun; Carnival, rained: postponed
Mon; Chalet
Tues; Friendly
Wed; Training
Thurs; Geraldine's birthday
Fri; Blaze
Sat; Work
Sun; Carnival & Agm
Mon; Training
Tues; Training
Wed; Training
Thurs; Work & CHRISTMAS PARTY
Fri; Friendly (Amanda's birthday)
Sat; Work (Yvonne's birthday)
Sun: Break :)
Mon; Jiemeis!
Tues; Christmas!
Wed; ?
Thurs; Friendly
Fri; ?
Sat; Work
Sun; Work
Mon; Work
Tues; 2008.

As much as I want to prioritise for being a student, I can't control my work schedule. I guess I made a wrong move?

Perhaps all I really want for Christmas; more free time, more netball, more giving, less frustrations.

Red & Green: Christmas!

2007-12-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

Wasn't this funny! Looks like the tree's the focus. Hah(:

It was an enjoyable night with the 3 of them, as we got our shirts, christmas hats, had pasta mania for dinner and walked down to orchard. The only cons was that I skipped piano, and besides that i kept falling for the same word trick!!! I can't ever say things starting with 'I'm'. I gotta rmb that!

Argh, how I wish I could join them tomorrow. I'm dying for workouts rather than all the air-conditioning and kids now...

I'm so frustrated because I can't remember the name of the Adidas shoes I want to get and I can't ever seem to find it online. It's white, with red straps along it's red stripes, low cut, categorized under training. I'M GETTING IT once I get my hands on Jiao lian's card. :X

Bottomline? Don't get it if you know me otherwise i'll get everything else that you have. Alright i'm joking. But I can be really childish, warn you. :D

I'll stop thinking so much for now and let things take its stride.

也许时间是一种解药，也是我现在正服下的毒药

2007-12-04T23:43:00.000+08:00

Hmmm. Could you tell that I probably had something to say that day?

I need more support. I need more mental strength. I need to do better cause i'm losing focus.

Seeing the shuttlers was a happy thing for such a tiring day! This week is packed that I'm afraid by sunday I am only half-alive... But actually next week is packed too, and even the week after, so this is rubbish. -.-

Sometimes I think I'm really dumb. Why didn't I study harder to get an edusave this year? Then I'll have more $ and wouldnt have to be trying to slog my ass off. This is rubbish again. Actually working isn't that bad, (I have nice colleagues like Feng Ming & Nadiah) what I'm emphasizing in here is that i, being dumb, to not have studied more, and read the newspapers in the past year. Okay I'm blogging really stupidly.

Is it too late anyway?

Ughhh thought we could have steamboat on New Year's Eve but I'm the only retard working until 9! Yet who even wants to spend countdown and the night of New Year's Eve with me this year? Mum wants to sleep... :(

Helping aunt for 3 days is as good as working for 3 weeks. At least I get additional $50 sponsored for my shoes, free food provided, and I get treated B&J every once in awhile.

Yeeeha!

Bbq on thursday, Carnival on sunday. COME ON LEE YING.

PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOUR ANKLE, GERALDINE! <3

-Fuck la. I dnt knw hw t say this.'

Only when failure is not for consideration, all things are possible.

2007-12-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

THIS 7 is <3.
Today's like some crazy spending $$ buying IT gadgets cause of the IT fair. Expo was so crowded that I could barely breathe. Father was so lucky at the lucky draw, he won the Burning Crusade Expansion Set which brother bought for at $59!! And now it's coming FOC!

Father's got an N95, Brother an O2, his new computer & monitor, so what did I get?

Let me see, A NEW HANDPHONE NUMBER! Inform you all soon again. Goodnight lovelies! :D

Sometimes one gets quite upset being turned down last minute. Especially when you arent feeling good in the first place. I felt it. So i told myself, 'No Leeying, you are not mad.' Yeah, I ain't. :(

Graci's gone to Taiwan, Cihui's back!! :D

Ok I shall update photoblog.

So when you are in thirst, you drink.
So when you are bored, you do something.
So when you are feeling dry, fill yourself up.

希望越大，失望越高..

2007-12-01T12:12:00.000+08:00

How fast, it's saturday...

Ci Hui's already at Malaysia, and Graci's leaving for taiwan tomorrow. I hope I wouldn't miss them too much. And gf's coming back this evening. And i'm working.

What a good life. I hate last minute changes now because life has been so 按部就班 this hols, if that's what you call it.

Things pop up so unexpectedly and i've been changing schedule like nobody's business that Megan, my supervisor might just be going to early labour anytime. Thankfully I finished ss with Graci and Louisa after 4 hours, yesterday. Blaze was, another story..

Ailin: Hi! :)
Tony: Wasn't I fast this time round?
Chengz: We'll find someday to go out after the 6th!
Eugene: Hello Eugenezzzz! How are you getting along with foozzz this time? ;P
Elissa: I'm going to date you all out again soon! :)
Jervis: Haha, it's brownies date too Jervis! ;D
Ks: Hey ks, looking forward to next monday! :)
Chishun: Hello! :)

For 5 days i've been suffering from insomnia. So I suspect it's either my bed, pillow, or blanket, and I conclude it's my pillow's fault.

What I want for Christmas:

An open patella knee support
A NEW bedtime pillow
A blanket
Nike Imara Keeva watch
A backpack
A large & nice duffel bag
More sports bra
Above-Ankle-length socks
Cakes, brownies, or chocolates!

Which most likely i'll get them myself unless somebody knows my preferences... Lol. K i'm happier. :D

Monday

2007-11-26T13:24:00.000+08:00

[ Edited ]

Let's keep together in spirit, netballers! We want IT. One more month.

'All yours.' - Kelyn.

-------------

Girl you mean the world to me,
just a little more than I can see.
Breaks us down,
we'd stay together,
only we can hustle who ever.
Would you come and go with me?
To fulfill our fantasies?
Take me by my hand, my dear,
Promise me you won't have no fear.

But people come up stronger

2007-11-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

& the end of the week turned out better.

Work became even fun, probably because I changed the way I perceived it. Just that I wouldn't get to see Auntie Mooi Lea for a month and a half,
I know even better today that Feng Ming's like some grown up big kid,
and all the kids are nevertheless, adorable.

Only grumpy grandmothers get all worked up over a lost handphone, (I know that's understandable) but at least you shouldn't have been when I was rushing for time and you made me feel so bad over it!!!

Saturday's Open House, I was late, even though I cabbed. Xinling's right, 'Leeying, yi hou ni chi dao jiu bu yao cab le la. ni bu cab ye chi dao, cab ye chi dao, lalalalala.' :D

But then Kelyn says, 'Always late, but worth the wait!' Heehee.

Watched Enchanted, then it was with Jiemeis in the night! <3 I suck at 五连拍, how did you all do it manzxzxzxz! I tried 2 new flavours at donut factory! They had New York New York for dinner in a box, and we had Gelare at night! I know i'm becoming rather short-tempered, for eg, just because they sent our Fantastic Five to the wrong table and we had it like 20 minutes later, I got rather fed up! Ughhhh.

Thanks for the tags darlings! I love them! <3

Chim: You should save the money at hongkong and don't come online gf! It's only 6 days! (Cause I have a feeling I wont see you online :( ) Lol!

Wen Jia: I haven't met up with you to pass you the catalogues this weekend!

Tony: Haha then dont ever think of catching me if you think you cant hold my weight, and may i know who's others, and what chance?

JieHui: That's really smart! I'm going to see how to memorise the method into my head!!

Geraldine: I love your tag!!! It's never too flooded to fit yours, i'll ban others if yours doesnt fit!!! (: (: (:

Mean Brenda: I want a date too Brenda! Omg, I think I'm becoming lesbian over you but the 2 J____ must be the only ones in your head only right! :X okie Brens, let's get others to watch anymore of the new shows out!

Grace: GAYF! I was going a little cranky last week (because of mood swings i think) but alright now, and if I come online often, i'll count down with you! It wouldnt suck as bad! <3

Sam: When you sang the song it was damn funny instead la! You must find someone else to continue it with you! Hahaha :D

Chishun: Hi Chishun, cause you never watch it right!

Tony: 3 weeks maybe only! Haha, you're not going to rot this time cause you're back in school!

During work today, i looked so tired... Fazelah said so. At least met up with happy family after that, we had Cartel, then went to walk walk as brother continued his spendings. There goes another busy week, and another one's coming up! If i'm free i'll definitely call jiemeis out to do homework. They're the only ones who responded! And only Cihui's like more than half done with it...

Gf's leaving for hongkong tmr, but i know 6 days will pass soon!

In 5 days, Friendly with sac, work, training, work, facial, piano, friendly with northland, blaze. At least i think payday's coming! It's time to get new shoes, backpack, camp bag, prepare the christmas gifts, clothes, however inclusive of all the cab fares, my pay is simply too little to afford all those....

I can't wait for the 6th, 13th, 20th & the 24th next month! As well as the 9th and the 15th, which signifies that friday nights break might be coming?

Omg this weekend I heard more of the best jokes ever.

1：你的笑话很冷leh,
2：因为你在加冷(Kallang)吗

1：你妈妈姓T,那么姓T叫shirt不就叫做T-shirt!
2：也可以叫裤，所以叫T-裤！
*Guy who got mesmerized by Cihui laughs discreetly even when Cihui got off the bus...* Rofl!

1：“受到打击……”
2：“那么不要打‘鸡’，打‘羊’啦！”

Haha, I forgot Puiyee's joke too! And Coach made her own joke as well! Hahahaha. I think i'm such a plain, typical girl. It wasn't that I expected much, cause all I needed was a warm hug with words-that-you-mean-it, or just a pair of eyes which could assure me of... I dont know what. Was that hard to know? But people might change, so do I..

Even kids let me learn things. They fight, they tease, when you're purely looking weird. But thing is, they're with innocence, without sarcasm, and they don't know they're purely mean.

Brother stands up for his sister, younger brother even..

I like what dreA told Geraldine,

"The reason why you feel like you haven't been improving is because you have already reached your peak."

It's really encouraging, Feel it.

And if I could throw a dice, which tells me the way to take

2007-11-22T01:02:00.000+08:00

Having met Li Han was the happiest thing for me today. (:

And now,

SOMEONE PLEASE CALL ME OUT / TELL ME YOU'RE AVAILABLE TO MUGGGGGGGGG!

Thank you Tony, for saying you 'will catch me actually'. Although that could be really sweet (like Eileen tagging), but you were second to say that to me in my life... And sometimes I dont believe it anymore. Pondering... Aint I really mean to you? Haha and you know it.

I even turned Uncle down for dinner. Sometimes I wonder if it's me and my stupid excuses. But I just really didn't have the appetite.

Looks like your family is really the most important one out there. Brother gave me the best comfort with his coffee on this rainy day. Okay at least it didnt belong to him but he made it, and I liked it!

Sigh. Work or training, Jiemeis or church... I was looking forward to Saturday, and still am. Why must they clash. Please work it out for me, Lord!

I love my dearest sister. When can we go out?!?! Its been decades since we even had a chance!!!

I love Mei Cheah. At least we wouldnt backstab one another. I know I have her there for me, and i'm going to be there as well.

I love my favourite person in the universe. She's the one to have the most fun with, and staying merely 2 bus-stops away.

I love Alicia, Andrea, Cihui, Geraldine, Graci, Xinling, Wanqi, Yvonne, Lihan, Brenda, Cherine, Elissa, Eileen, tinGz, Bel, Nat. So many reasons, which might take forever to list.

I wanna have a meal or watch some shows at anyone's house with my team mates. I cant wait for our christmas party! <3

I hate my memory, I can never remember anything clearly. Everything's so vague and I can't differentiate if it's real or fake. It's not my fault...

I really want to go out with my Jiemeis.... <3

I want to watch Enchanted. Anybody??

I want to watch Hero, Josh. All your fault for making me read it's review and our plans today flunked.

I want to bake, we still got our brownies exchange, Jervis!!!

Ivan owes me a birthday gift.

And I'm waiting for Leonard's return! (:

I'm happy to have my gf! (:

Funnily i miss terie-ble! Heehee.

13th December is coming! Time to save some $! :D

I'm being such an asshole sometimes. Especially to some guys... No wonder I've yet to come up with a list, Lou.

Things always get better sometimes. But it goes down again sometimes. At least I sense things are over. 'Letting go' exists in my life, and i'm laughing at myself for being such a fool. Haha ha.

Looks like I ended up with a long post after all my enters.

山穷水尽疑无路，柳暗花明又一村 !!!

to the one whom could've travelled the world a few times

2007-11-21T02:27:00.000+08:00

And actually, quite some burden was lifted. Thank you! :)

Training drained me totally, yet I didnt feel like sleeping. Then the outcome wasn't so bad after all.

And can I say how much I miss Elissa, Eileen, LiHan, Cherine & Brenda as well. Sometimes it's great to have friends who talk, and those who listens. Just like CiHui and the team. Heehee. xD

I would

2007-11-20T12:49:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wish I could retake some steps in life.

I would be less critical,
I would be more mindful.
I would have been more loving,
I would not have done some things I shouldn't do.

But it still isn't too late, is it? I'm sorry for all of my sharp remarks I've ever said to anyone. It really fits in the description of a CD person.

What a retard I was. So unlike me. Louisa is right, I could never leave something behind entirely and not bother at all.

Movie outing yesterday was something to be happy about, but that's just the way it goes. I have a nice gf I know. (:

Mahjong with Wen Jia, Louisa & Zoots on Sunday night was fun. And someone didn't win at all! But you will the next time. :D

Haven't trained in a week. I'm looking forward to seeing my team mates! <3

我不配

2007-11-18T18:02:00.000+08:00

Jiemeis! Im looking forward if we're going out tgt soon! So is it with my gf! =))

18 days of november's passing, ain't that fast. I havent started on homework yet. If you all wanna do some homework outside, do ask me too!!!

ChiangRai people are back! Went to fetch them, and on that day i managed to skip 2 trainings! haha, but i wasnt that mean to pon deliberately. Brenda's luggage was so heavy, i bet she bought a whole bag of souvenirs for ahem! Heehee. :X Coach is back by this week, and i think im fitter to train. 'Coach' reminds me of CiHui at the airport. Hahaha.

Went for Louisa's mass today. Louisa Ann Sng? ^^

Primary school friends gathering was pretty fine, everyone lives near one another and Yi Shu is still as funny as day 1! The Game Plan was rather nice, with digital effects somemore! Haha. Yay if there's going to be a chalet once more i'll go this time round instead of baking cookies! Cause I miss ll. :(

I think i'm a sucker. I wasnt willing to tell those whom i love i love you. JIE i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you! <3

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美

我不配

Anyway I was surprised when brother said he doesnt wants a new computer anymore. I was expecting him to want some kind of new gadget but it turned out to be something else, which shocked me at first! Haha.

And actually, life was boring these few days....... ZZZ.

wtf

2007-11-13T19:46:00.000+08:00

Sianzzzzzzz.

My throat's hurting like fuxx as the day goes. I wonder if it's because of lunch and i didn't laugh much, even though Lixuan was laughing like some siaosiao lady. I find Elize even funnier, although I can't deny Ci Hui's face looks funny indeed. This must be the first time Elize, Kelly-anne, Andrea, Lixuan, Geraldine, Cihui and I had lunch together. Completing 6 sets of suicide was indeed an achievement, but XIN and LOU werent there. :(

I'm so exhausted and fed up and unhappy cause I tried sewing just and I failed terribly. Wtfxxxxx. It was just the perfect gift I thought of and I couldnt succeed. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh. :'(

I'm so irritated. Work's another worrying matter when you need to find replacements !(@^*!^#(*@!&^()!^@()!^#()!@^#(*&@#%. :(

But I spent on impulse again today, and the hairdresser was pretty friendly. There goes a week's allowance after today, but I spent it happily. Teehee. :D

Oh which shows i forgot that i need $ for tomorrow, but who cares. Heehee.

a stout heart

2007-11-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

I wonder why I cough more often only in the night.

Training tomorrow at 830, yet 2 hours ago Graci and I were just done with work! Being the last 2 out wasnt that easy after all. Everything else was closed, blahblahblah.

Sometimes I really talk no sense. Every sentence I say is either meant for a particular someone or everyone! Otherwise i'm just talking to myself lol. Anyway saw Elissa today! That's something to be happy about. And seeing Eileen last week during work too! :D

I wanna watch a movie... I wanna go have dinner!!!!!! =))

Those at ChiangRai will be back in 3 days!!! One of my guppy is still alive! (:

Brenda wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai, ai neng bu neng gou yong yuan dan chun mei you bei ai! :D

& when i reply tags you know it is me. (:

Lock and key hypothesis

2007-11-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS ADELINE'S BIRTHDAY. :D

Bridging's over, but i still think there's no difference. And along these few days i'm thinking that something is missing but what? Maybe Brenda, Zoots, Bel and Pan, since they're away at Chiang Rai. So is Cherine!

Work, training, work, training..... Who was the one who said i'll become 'no life', maybe that'll become true!

Thanks for the songs Jon! I LOVE THE SONGS! <3

And chatting with Xinling and Favourite person was so fun, i could expand my imagination! ^^

1 week ago we had the sports class bbq! Alicia cut her finger and couldnt play for the past week. So the rest of us went on with training! On the 5th there was friendly with Northland. We did coloured extensions. 1 week and 1 day ago was Jarryl's 21st birthday. And he is my favourite cousin. (:

On the 6th Favourite person and I camped at the airport again though we said not to until next year! But at least we sent Brenda, Bel, Pan and Zoots off! (:

JieHui: Nah she wouldnt scold! She's so kind! (:
Elissa: I miss you too Elissa! Brenda's right, don't emo lehhhhh! (:
Brenda: COME BACK SOON! :(
Eileen: Jiemeis so long never meet up already! Nvm still got next month! <3
Joshua: Same here! Long time no talk! Haha and long time no see!
Chim: And to you, long time no chat!
lilnet: HELLO! XD
Sam: Don't worry you will make friends! Core lit should be okay... But I heard its slack! You can always appeal! You'll see all your sports class friends in school still!

I am infatuted with Elize! Heehee. xD

And I was rarely fall sick but....
this once you took care of me and....
i wonder if i've repaid you enough cause....
Nothing hurts as much as being betrayed by somebody you trusted so much.

&I wonder if I like you cause i have my fears & doubts.

& We have been drifting far away,,,

Let's go to the gym, team!

What a beautiful smile, can I stay for awhile?

2007-10-31T22:15:00.000+08:00

Last day of October! Happy Halloween! (:

Time passes really fast. Just a week ago we were finally heading back to blaze after quite awhile. Then there was just training on monday, and honestly, it was a killer. Cause our limbs ached real badly the next day until now! The chinese papers were over today, so all i'm hoping for is that I'd pass my compo, or at least manage an A for overall... I hope. I hope.

Went to Alicia's house to watch 1408! Cool movie. I screamed once. Haha. Anyway I'm impressed that Xinling got a translation job! It's like she has to translate even words like 'glass fibres' to chinese. Imagine flipping all the dictionaries... It's remarkable! Another amazing thing is that 2 out of 4 of my guppies are still alive. Is that how you spell it in plural? Geraldine, how's yours! ^^

I guess what goes around really comes back around, most of the time. I'm so glad i got a kind and lovely piano teacher, she called me four times just because i left behind my cinnamon apple and by the time i saw her missed calls i was already back at the entrance. I'm sorry Louisa! <3

Thanks for the tags
Cy: Haha what's with JueHua!
Gayf: YOU MEAN YDNA! Suddenly I remember him. Hahahaha! :D
Graci: take care, love.
JieHui: it was nice playing cards with you, Adeline & Melinda too! i realized Melinda's really nice. haha take care there!
Xinling: YOU ARE RIGHT. Ni men de xiao hua zhen de ke yi hen leng lor! Bossini & new balance shi gou zai de le! ^^
Sam: Dont worry! You 2 are still in the same level. I'm sure you both will be able to keep in touch. It wouldnt be hard! =)
Yina: Haha hello! Thanks! :D
Brenda: Brenbrensss! Ai4 si3 ni3 le4!
Ivan: Thanks Ivan! You too. I'll rmb what you owe me! ;)
Geraldine: Are you the les instead!! Hahaha i would love to play with you again. And more also! Hopefully on friday! We're going to get the chance!!! Thank you for your regards on my chinese! <3

Maybe sis is right. We seem to be treated as pawns, like our main purpose is to just help gain glory and recognition. No wonder we lose our passion gradually. That's kind of inevitable with such harsh conditions laid down upon us.

Maybe some day you should know that even teens have their pride and dignity. We are not there to be despised or looked down upon. Thankfully, i'm not very upset. Cause I can gladly say now that we don't need anyone else but ourselves.

Thank you for two of your words from monday until now Ci Hui, it gives me the best enlightenment recently. Please take care of your sore throat, and Geraldine, of your flu! (:

OH YEAH ANYWAY I LIKE TURTLE SOUP. AND I LIKE CHERRY GARCIA. AND SO DO I LIKE CHUNKY MONKEY, AS WELL AS STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE. MAGIC BROWNIES? AIN'T BAD, AND I'M TALKING ABOUT B&J. Did you notice that I prefer chocolates, dark? Yet I like hot chocolate.. I like baking.. I like sorbet... Last thing, bridging isn't really fun.

another year! :D

2007-10-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

TWENTY-THIRD OCTOBER! You know I'm pretty sure this will be a day i'll feel happy next year or in years to come! Gf knows why! xD anyway please take care!

6-30 didn't turn out to be a killer like I(or we!) expected, for we only did it 4 times cause coach gave us discount yay!

I love Geraldine, she is the best wing player i've ever played/worked with down the defence line, that's why I always say I LOVE MY WD!!!!!!! :) :) :)

Louisa you left even before I could say goodbye to you today after training!!! Anyway i'm not all that biased, I love my team mates more as the days go by! (:

I am getting influenced by Ci Hui and Xinling and all! I actually am saying all the leng xiao hua i've never expected myself to say. Hahaha. Baking at Fiona's house was pretty fun! Honestly your brownies are the best ones i've ever ever ever eaten! :D

(Thanks for helping with the cake!!!!)

So tired, i'm going to end up late for school again... OKAY NO. I JUST REMEMBERED WHAT I SAID IN MY PREVIOUS POST. 3K, your coupons with $100 plus worth are with me!!! HAHAHA.

Oh yeah, sports enrichment was pretty fun. Especially when you had to turn all agressive and hug a person down onto the floor. Good job netballers, basketballers, shuttlers and tt girls! xD

I stuffed my dinner down in 5 minutes and caught the repeat of bu yi shen xiang!!!!!!! (Y)

BTW JAY CHOU'S ALBUM IS OUT ON 2/11!

Havent been spending time with Jie meis! But I will rmb our christmas date! <3

So does anything lasts?

2007-10-22T23:34:00.000+08:00

Just succeded downloading o2jam and I'm able to play it on my laptop! But it's running low on batt and i'm lazy to charge it, thus I shall go sleep soon! :D

Xinling and CiHui told me the wise choice of taking the train home, cause there's going to be 6x630 tomorrow, really can die one......

8 of us went to the gym! Brother has started on his O Levels, and so has EileenChia, AiLin and Singyee, and all the rest!!! Nat will be having her A Levels this wednesday too! While we Sec3s only have one paper, on next wednesday!

All the best to you all first!!!!! (:

I'm overjoyed (cause I got my job!) , yet i'm rather ???

Geraldine, are you going to be the first one i lose touch with after next year....? :'(

LEE YING SAYS SHE IS NOT GOING TO BE LATE NEXT YEAR.

(Or maybe fewer times!)

Does it really sounds familiar! Was Mr Mok's scolding last year really that bad? Was I really that rude? How come I didn't think so... Ahhhh I didnt meet my target for gf! Anyway take care there, all! Nights!

Love(:

heartfelt

2007-10-21T02:06:00.001+08:00

Best friends, thus you cant break her heart.

Sometimes I wish I didnt have to face you so much, cause I cant bring myself to. Yet by doing so, it breaks my own heart.

It seems as if my emotions are tangled. Over, everything.

I love you, but hey, you dont know who i'm talking to. If the greatest lie we're believing today is that we need to do this life, alone, I tell you no, i'm with you.

Be Inspired.

2007-10-20T20:22:00.000+08:00

Weekend again! Just less than an hour ago I joined Facebook. Favourite person, i'm off to see what fun you're having! :D

Alright, i'm bored again. I skipped piano last week, so there goes $30! Good thing i'm still starting out early. I think Eugene is mean! I dont like pehpeh liao la. :(

Lunch with Louisa on thursday, then at night, Alicia, Ci Hui and I were so highly motivated the next day we went to the gym along with Xinling!

We decided to make it a weekly thing so come join us mates! It's air-conditioned and you get to see macho men and people swimming LOL. (:

Baking failed today cause I dont really like the taste. I had a great walk home and I realized it wasnt difficult at all! Haha. Supper later perhaps, with favourite person!

Anyway today I visited JM 4's blog for the first time ever! (:

Today I saw gf! Clara and Zoe were acting fishy, then next was brother but then I saw him the next minute I was punched! Gf's going for his trials! All the best gf! Please take good care of yourself!

Josh told me some bullshit psychiatry stuffzxzxzxz. Ok la it wasnt crap. But I just didnt want to listen! ... :D

I AM SCARED ABOUT MY CHINESE.......

Sometimes it's better knowing less cause the other way round can really suck.

H_ S___ 的话仍耿耿于怀……

http://www.hourofpower.org/video/video.details.php?id=2237

The greatest lie we're believing today is that we need to do this life, alone.

NATALIA'S BIRTHDAY TOMORROW! 21ST OCTOBER! (:

Starts with H, ends with S! :)

2007-10-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

It's been long since I've updated, I've become so bo chap. ARGH.

Exams are over! I know I'm lagging, since it's over like 5 days ago. Mugging areas had been at Whitesands, either Macs or the library, during weekdays! And at Airport's Macs during the weekends. NOW I BID GOODBYE TO THEM, SEE YOU NEXT YEAR! Weee~ I'm flying in the air HAHAHA.

So after the gruelling 3 hours of Bio paper last friday, Jiemeis went to Cartel for lunch! Met up with Wen Jia at night and we went overnight studying at the airport again! Then the Sec1s bballers were already there! Like damn hardworking! And they offered us their side sofa seats! Yay! :D

Then Ms Lee came with her husband at 12 midnight to help. Ain't she really helpful! Was wondering if Mr Mok will come over and help us hahaha. :D

Dear Brenda and Elissa, THANK YOU! For if not for you both, I guess I wouldnt have revised much at all. :-*

Anyway Chinese was screwed up by me. Like really really badly. And it's really really disappointing. Last Wednesday after the papers mates and I went bowling!! And I know I embarrased myself again, but I had a great time with them. :D

We went to dreA's house and watched Pan's Labyrinth(?) as well as She's the Man! Wonderful day! (Y)

Thursday! JIEMEIS and JieFu went to have Marche at vivo! Yummy. :D

Friday there was school, and I was so effing fed up. But I went for Cell group, and I had a really great night with all of them. :)

Saturday was the day before Uncle Swee's birthday! We ate at Hip Diners by Billy Bombers, caught Mr Woodcock, and headed back. Then, went Giant which was beside Ikea! I KNOW WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN YOU AND THE GIRL! =P

Sunday was fun. Church with Zoots, Bel & Jon, then I got Zoots to join Brother, Mum, Sis, Lewis & I for lunch! Mum'd rather have steak with her than I!!!!! Hahaha. Anyway I'm lazy to elaborate anything anymore. So evening we, Wen Jia, Graci and her mum went for a run at Bedok reservoir, then 4 of us went swimming!

Today, met Eugene, Elissa, LiHan, Brenda & Eileen! Thank you Eugene! For Cartel and the SONG! Thanks Elissa and LiHan! I'm in the midst of learning how to swim. :D

ANYWAY I GOT EMPLOYED. I CANT WAIT FOR 2/11!

Brenda: :-*

THANK YOU GERALDINE! I KNOW YOU WON THIS SNICKERS FOR ME. ENJOYED RATATOUILLE WITH YOU AND GRACI! :D

This adorable card was from Yina & Natalie! :D

Everytime I wear this I'll think of tinGz! x)

Love you favourite person, thanks for coming at midnight.

My teammates gave me a really meaningful shirt! :)

Andrea baked these wonderful cookies! :D

Wonder how Ci Hui looks in a dress..... !

For some reasons I edited the last photo! It's 1 already, there's school tomorrow. And I wouldnt think going to the Cha Guan is silly if it doesnt falls on a tuesday. !@*^@*(#@(*()!*@(*!^#*&@^#!@ and I would get frustrated if I waste a lesson of piano argh byebye.

Anyway last thing to say, thank you Graci & Gf. You 2 were the first I called. I hope you are feeling less fed up, Graci.
Wish me luck.. Cause I need all that I can get to go through everything.....

October 3.

2007-10-03T22:32:00.000+08:00

Right, 3 papers are over and I dont know what am I doing.

I spend my nights lazing around.. Watching tv.. Immersed in my own thoughts. Honestly, I wonder what's productive. Last thursday, I did something I liked, which was baking cookies! Did it for Zi Xi, and i left some of the lovely breadwoman for my team mates and wrote them notes. Cause I sure hope they're doing fine. (:

Friday, JMs, Eugene and 'flower' went to watch Balls of Fury! It was rather funny, and thinking of it now makes me feel like watching a movie even though its the exams. Anything.

Sat after oral, came home only to fall asleep, but it was my chinese birthday so mum repaid me my cake and it came with candles! SO I GOT TO MAKE A WISH. ;)

Favourite person in the universe asked me if I wanted to go overnight studying at the airport! It was rather productive for me I guess, for I read 12 chapters of chem and by then it was already 6 in the morning. We stayed till 9 plus and went for service, there was I about to doze off. Hmmm. But we went to Eighteen Chefs for lunch cause I guess I was the one who didnt wanted Kobayashi! After which I guess we were tired. Went home, and mum brought me out for a facial... It was so relaxing that I fell asleep but Jervis and Xuan Hao teased me about being too stressed the next day!!! ><

Oh right so here will I mention I went to play lan for the second time of my life with sis, bro and weihow! Lol but I'm still noob as usual!

Then, I think Pasir Ris has become our favourite hangout! everyday of the week I had been to Whitesands studying, especially at their library, but today we studied at macs instead, both in the morning and in the afternoon. I was so tired and the seat Brenda and I were sitting at was so comfy, I nearly fell asleep while listening to V3. I miss O2jam. Hah. Oh yeah studying with them was so funny. :D

So I thought Humanities were like the most tiring papers where you scribble for one and a half hours writing up to 8 pages and it's excruciating. Not until when Louisa told me for Core Lit they are having 2 papers, which means wouldnt it be like 2 hours plus!? Which I think if I ever have to write so much it is oh my God......

That's all. I can't ever seem to focus nor absorb much about bio cause I cant bring myself to be interested in it. Even after these whole 10 months. And all I've touched during the 4-5 hours in macs today was just one mini chapter on respiration. And it's chem paper tomorrow. That's why I say, what am I doing?

Sometimes I think I'm still rather childish. / Even with all the sounds of mahjong and shouts, I could still happily practise playing the piano.

Kerokerokeroppi! <3

2007-09-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZIXI!!! :D

Thanks Megan! Your link is my best source of joy and relieve from SS for the night! :D

http://www.flickr.com/photos/whyyanbing/

All the best for oral tomorrow, sec3s!

LOL, aint this a pretty candid shot of myself!!!

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED AFTER I BURST A BAG OF WATER. HAHAHA.

Ji Wang de sheng ri! Say, wasn't we having a walking talkie cool? And the guys' speed while doing coolie were really fast!!! xD

After 1 and a half hours i'm finally done with looking through the 1505 pictures! These are the best candid shots I CAN FIND! Love the play to bits and pieces!
Student camp was a really great memory. (:

Ice-cream...

2007-09-26T23:44:00.000+08:00

Just remembered I told Elissa I feel like having Ice-cream today! Yet I didnt have it but had the frappe and potato salad instead! I still like B&J's chunky monkey...cherry garcia...rather than chocolate flavours!

And after reading your blog, LOUISA SNG MEI CHEAH, last thursday it was your fault we stayed in the shop so long and bought nothing!!!

Hahaha, I cant wait to try out Island Creamery since Louisa says its so nice.

Can't wait for some weekend where we can all hang out together! To Louisa: Dont worry, I'M NOT IN TO YOU!!!

This week 7 JMs will be going to watch BALLS OF FURY along with ahem & ahem. What a delightful outing we can look forward to during this exam season! :D

Hello.

2007-09-26T21:00:00.000+08:00

Okay Ivan, I'll blog about it since you mention. (:

Monday, I went to study with Ivan after school. Elias mall, and the usual procrastinating Lee Ying reached at 4 after going home to bathe. Ivan on the other hand had to leave by 7 to meet his friends.. (PANGSEH!) So I stayed behind alone to finish up my essay. By the time I was done with it, it was 9. So as I boarded the bus to head home, I got down at some stop in Pasir Ris and decided to change to 12. However when I reached 201 I decided to alight and went to YES Supermarket! From there I bought Mcvities Boasters Belgian chocolate biscuits to snack on, then I started my walk back. There was this woman whom I noticed. Her back was hunched and she was carry a lot of plastic bags. And it just so happens that I was walking alongside her listening to my music. Then as I turned and looked her into the eye, she started talking to me. (With only her lips moving)

She was really friendly, with a motherly-look, also like I've seen her somewhere before. She asked me questions like did I just came back from work? (In my shirt and shorts) Are biscuits all that I'm having for dinner? School ended so late?! (When I told her I went studying) All in chinese. So I removed my earpiece and went ahead with a friendly conversation with her. Sadly she rejected my offer of helping her carry her bags but she told me about mooncakes. (:

As her house was nearer from 201, before she turned in, she asked for my particulars. (Name, age, block, number) Well, and she said i'm 'so young!' before leaving. And I didnt give her my contact, for we bidded off goodbye with 'You3 yuan2 zai4 jian4!' :)

But that lady lifted my spirits just like that.

After which, gf was really nice to hear me talking. ^^

Yesterday, I went studying with Elissa, LiHan and Eileen at Whitesands Library! (HOT CHOCOLATE! <3) Since we werent sure if we could study at the Coffee Club. Darn it, I started reading my history since long time and until today I dont understand much at all!

Today; Elissa, Eileen, Brenda and I studied at Starbucks instead. Mocha frappe was equally delightful as well! Then I bought more pens as we went to popular. After I went home to bathe I went for piano where after paying my fees I realized I did not bring enough cash to top up Graci's card! So I'll do it for you instead tomorrow morning! (:

Halfway through SS as Ms Khoo was going through some SEQ, I started sleeping... I am becoming so lazy to even do my work against the table that I can even fall asleep just lying against the seat! Breakfast tomorrow morning with the usual 5 who are more likely to turn up. Haha. I hope I wouldnt be late like how I had always been. I feel really bad making all my dearest friends wait all the time. Sorry! :(

Gosh, this horror movie is playing on tv and I am getting so distracted. I'm trying my best to learn my humanities but the interlinking part always gets me so frustrated that I can idle away hours thinking that I am thinking? OF JUST SOME COMMON CRITERIA. W. Sigh, I dont know what I'm doing. There's still 3 sciences barely touched. Yet I'll just see how things go. I'm tired, and gf, I bet you are too!

Sam said something like he dont wanna his sec 2 year to end. Sigh mine has ended, and it's reaching the end of the sec 3 year as well. Many things are happening in school, revolving around people's life, and ... ... I am happy and thankful with my own life, I think. For I still get to see my friends around sometimes here and there, all those who makes me feel happy, I am not in short of money, and I have family and friends whom i know watches my back. (:

So, is that enough? I'm dying to tell you what's in my thoughts.

ANYWAY JAY CHOU MAKES MY DAY! (EILEEN'S MP3 ROCKS!) :D

But everybody's been loved by somebody before.

2007-09-24T00:09:00.001+08:00

In this world there are so many things that have to make you close one eye, like this:

; )

It's hard to imagine.

Everybody's hurt somebody before..

2007-09-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

Today, Pastor Kong said,

'You can give without loving, but you can't love without giving.'

Anyway, so what's about the 'I CAN SEE THE FUTURE' thing.

Went airport studying with favourite person and Zoots after church, we sure did have some bit of laughter!

Zoe started the BK thing which makes me feel so EMBARASSED. Then we started another bit of teasing of Zoots with my dearest B_____r! I wonder if you can figure this out but of course you arent supposed to. ;)

Favourite person's starting out Rock Your World, and next thing that's going to follow is i'm going to major in accountancy! We're confident of her succeeding, I dont know why but i'm sure Zhu Ting and I feel the same way for you and your partner, favourite person! :)

Yesterday was a tedious and unproductive 7 and a half hours studying, because i spent 4 hours doing what should have been done in 20 minutes. Plus i'm sure Ivan got bored. Ugh. :(

Oh right! So while we were leaving we saw Chimin and Lydia! :) :) :)

And gf didnt have his meals. :(

So we managed to get him to eat! :)

And I can't believe I let you win gf! :(

But thanks alot. From the bottom of my heart. =))

One week since I've touched the laptop, and life hasnt been a bore. Thank you to all the people who has wished me a happy birthday, I wish I can type everybody's name down here to tell you specifically I really really appreciate what your greetings had done but I know you'll understand it's the exams. Love you darlings! :)

One of the highlights was Bel's message on that day, 'I promise i'll love you more today than I did yesterday, love you more tomorrow than I did today! :D'

All the best for the upcoming exams coming in a week's time! I gonna do well because of the pen I bought, right LouiS? LOVE YOU TOO! :D
FOR A MILLION TIMES I TOLD MYSELF IT DOESN'T MATTERS WHAT YOU SAY OR DO FOR I'M GOING TO LET GOD TAKE OVER MY LIFE YET EVERYTIME I SEE ANYTHING YOU SAY OR DO I FEEL SO WEAK INSIDE LIKE I'M TEARING APART. BUT I AM HAPPY. JUST THAT I HAVEN'T LET IT ALL OUT.

Jesus Reigns!

2007-09-16T21:12:00.000+08:00

It was my birthday yesterday, I had an awesome time, even though oversleeping for an hour in the morning and making my darling Jiemuiix wait for me. Love them to bits and pieces for I know their intentions to surprise me! (:

Ivan tried to keep his promise by being the first ever to give me a call few minutes before my birthday, so that when it strikes 12, he will be the first to wish me a happy birthday. However my dear favourite person came along and I didnt have time to talk on the phone, so in the end that first time did not happen.

Yet favourite person made/boiled the hot chocolate specially/personally for me and sent it to me at midnight with Gayf's help. You both are the sweetest thing(:

Lunch with family was also tasty for I wanted dian xin. Mt favourite cousin was there too, along with some other relatives although I only had my table with sis, bro & my fave cousin, and I bet the things we had eaten must've summed up to more than fifty.

Headed home and my wonderful brother whom Cherine, Elissa and all managed to tell me another one of the best jokes ever regarding Meiji milk and him, he helped me with the dye! No need to explain further, I should say.

Dinner with Kelyn, Ci Hui, Xinling, Samuel & Chimin! (:

I had another fantastic time along with dreA as well, oh yeah then we all took neos just like how I did with my Jiemuiix! Pretty nehxzxz! We played at the arcade till night time as well. Then, we went home, and I reached home safely already at slightly past 11! (:

Thanks for the gift team, even though most of you didn't make it for the dinner. The words on the shirt is really MEANINGFUL for me I know! Please take loads of care for your body my dearest Geraldine, and to Alicia, Graci, Louisa & Wj who told me sorry about it, it's alright. (:

WHEN YOU SAY SOMETHING REALLY BAD ABOUT ME IT BREAKS MY HEART WHEN I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY. OH LEE YING, WHY ARE YOU SO VULNERABLE TO WORDS!

Last sunday, I went for my usual church service. Nick Vujicic was the guest speaker.

Look, his smile is so charming! (:

He said a line like this,

"Sometimes we wish we could do something or wish we could have something that we didn't have, but we end up forgetting the things that we already had."

And he's right, how many times have I forgotten about the things I already had? Oh and I shared all my cakes with my lovely brother and sister at home, since Wen Jia and Zoots were so unwilling to share them with me... My birthday this year had been really awesome, even though the only thing that I'm really affected about is that I didnt get to blow out a single candle at all. But however, i'm glad my Jiemuiix let me WISH UPON A FORK.

Sometimes, people dont know how small things they do really brightens up a person's day. However, small things done can also break a person's heart.

He's so strong and happy regardless having no arms and legs... (Nick) While I am happy and filled and want to continue to love!

However, I didn't feel like talking to anyone today but favourite person and tinGz. We went studying after church, but before that they, Kenneth, Serena, Bel and Joseph sang a birthday song for me. I really was on the verge of tears because I felt love from all of you. I feel, church is really another wonderful place for me to meet people i've actually never known!

So, 3 of us spent our time at Burger King talking about end of the world. Honestly, i'm shocked that the world is going to end before 2050, and what have I been doing?

I had been loved so much, and regardless of whatever disappointment I had ever faced, God loves me so unfailingly. I seek comfort in Him and find it. Even though I'm glad Leonard and Wen Jia had come on to church, but I'm not all that happy. Because there are so many more of you whom I love and yet I haven't brought salvation to nor shared the word with. What are we doing? What am I doing? The talk with Wen Jia and Zhu Ting today is going to change my life. Right. (:

Eventually in my heart I always have this thought. All of you are really wonderful regardless of whether you had hurt me before or not. I love you all. But because, I had been loved firstly. (:

To all my close buddies, I hope we stick till the end and i'll meet you in heaven. Even when judgement day comes, I will face it, and admit all the wrongs i had done. Let's take step by step and move from faith to faith, glory to glory. And when the trumpet sounds, I really want to hear God tell me, "Well done, my good and faithful servant."

Thank you 3K for the birthday song.
Thank you Brenda for the 8 cakes from Four Leaves.
Thank you Yina for being the first to wish me Happy Birthday through the sms and thanks for the card together with Natalie!
Thank you Geraldine for winning the snickers for me and we watching Ratatouille together with Graci as well.
Thank you Uncle Swee for the dinner, perfume and sending me home as well.
Thank you Wen Jia for the self-made hot chocolate that way so sweet that it could've melted my heart as well.
Thank you Jiemuiix for the Oreo Cheesecake, birthday song, Cafe Cartel breakfast treat and the neoprints.
Thank you my family for the dian xin you all came to have with me at Toa Payoh.
Thank you brother for our dye-ing process.
Thank you Chimin, Samuel, Xinling, Ci Hui, Kelyn for the Billy Bombers dinner treat, mooncakes, blueberry cheese cake, birthday songs and the time spent together at the neoprint shop and arcade along with Andrea as well!
Thank you Gf darling for sending me home!
Thank you Kenneth and Serena for the Mango shirt!
Thank you all for your wishes! I wish to list all the names but there are more than 50 like Brenda said, and many of them are whom I consider really good friends! I actually counted! xD

THANK YOU GF, YOU ACTUALLY FULFILLED MY LAST YEAR'S BIRTHDAY WISH. 5398 + 14 from Andrea last year, and all the smiles i've received on that day, you've given me more than what I've asked. =))

I'm sure I had received x 10 of at least of what I had actually wished for.

Maybe this is why God says, you'll receive things back tenfolds, hundredfolds, and even up to thousands and thousands.

Pictures um, up on photoblog next time after my router gets exchanged! I'M FIFTEEN! OLDER BUT STILL AM LEE YING. :D

nb

2007-09-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

Knn. Bloody bastards never fail to spoil your day.

At least I enjoyed baking with dreA and Zoots! They did most of the job, aww. I know I'm not a very good host! I'm just waiting for the last shift to be done now. It smells heavenly. (:

I think my piano is jealous cause I havent touched it for a day. And it's late now. :(

I think Scofield's a nice guy. Favourite person joined us studying yesterday and he's the second person who offered to treat me to dinner tomorrow. Mates say I got no time for them, Zoots also. :(

I have this feeling my Jiemuiix wouldnt forget me. (:

From now on, I'll never believe that we can be friends still. Cause you proved it to me by your petty bloggings.

hi bye

2007-09-11T22:13:00.000+08:00

Hey all!

I'm feeling guilty, cause I asked Geraldine to join us for dinner and she turned out to be running on a fever which seemed rather bad. :(

PLEASE TAKE CARE MY DEAREST WD!!!

This morning, the nicest thing happened which was that Gf sheltered us on the way to school with his Umbrella-ella-ella-eh-eh-eh LOL! Haha nah i'm just really happy and thankful! =))

THANK YOU GF!!!

Training today was pretty fun. cause we had the game where we could only catch with one hand! It was really nice still. (:

Plus Kelyn, Alicia, Louisa, Ci Hui, Geraldine, Andrea & I had dinner tgt at 85 after that!

Then 4 of us are thinking of going into some study break for our friday nights. Heeheeeee. ^^

And Sunday was good with Leonard, Fu Seng, Mei Xuan & Zoots at expo! Zhu Ting, Mei Xuan and I saw Jiao Lian at Macs after that with his kids, and he was so ti tie to his children! I actually thought that his maid was his wife. Lol!

At first I thought the past few days were pretty bad, but after awhile things always get better. My first 2 birthday presents came already! But 1 got eaten by my DEAR SISTER, which I didnt want to forgive her until she said sorry. It was 2 of my favourite B&J ice-cream flavours! But I realised it's alright after all. ^^

Sigh I'm currently using my brother's comp. I got truckloads of math to do and all the tan, cos & sin graphs are still currently in the process of being absorbed into my brain.

For the tags! (:

Eileen: Till now I havent watched Ratatouille! Gosh I gonna drool while watching! xD I WANT YOUR COOKIE RECIPE! :D :D :D
Brenda: Let's do it someday AFTER exams! ;)
Zhuting: Let's have a GREAT TIME this thursday K! :D
Chim: Which day gf? Haha everything will be fine always!!!! =p
JokerZ: HAHAHA. I'm laughing! Good joke joker! IF I WILL SEE YOU ON SUNDAY! :D
Cherine: LET ME TEST MY OVEN FIRST!!! YAY!!!

Anyway the reason this day matters to me isnt because it's 911, however this day just reminds me of something...

SORRY GRACI FOR I SLAMMED THE BALL AT.......

2007-09-08T01:28:00.000+08:00

I forgot to mention that hot chocolate is my new favourite. Although i've only tried new york new york, cafe galilee, mc cafe, eighteen chefs and cafe cartel's.

It'll all be over.

In a positive light. (:

I cant wait to grow up and see how long we stick to the end!

I know this post is like.. 'Catching no balls'?

7th september.

2007-09-07T22:33:00.000+08:00

"The difference between perseverance and obstinacy is that one comes from a strong will and the other comes from a strong won't."
- Henry Ward Beecher

Success in life is not so much a matter of hard work as it is always making certain you are willing and not "won't-ing".

Taken from Natalia's blog. There's something that makes sense in here.

Anyway I didnt go for project runway.. Nor did I watch Ratatouille cause I'm in some diffcult straits of finances! =/ Instead I slept for 3 hours after I came home. We had Eighteen Chefs for lunch again!! I think there's going to be our fave hangout in Simei someday soon, considering that their prices are rather reasonable.

Cherine gave me the best idea of what to have for my birthday gift! I was deciding between either a PSP or something else, then they reminded me of the oven!! And mum says okay. Hehhhh. :D

Then my kor and my brother remembers that my birthday is coming! One's going to get me a gift from the HEART while the other wants to treat me TOO! Haha...... xD

I see that Graci & Zhuting are back from OBS! Havent seen them for the whole week as well! (:

Sigh i dont know what else to say actually. Studying tomorrow!

Plaza Sing with JM #1-5

2007-09-07T00:04:00.000+08:00

Studying with Jiemuiix in the afternoon at Plaza Sing! Haha all because Kbox plan failed! Thankfully I finished chinese homework! Firstly we had Kfc for lunch, after which we studied at McCafe! Then we went to walk and had Cartel for dinner! All in that short 5 to 6 hours. I'd better stop eating so much lest I put on more weight!!!
Next thing,

BE HAPPY, GF!!!!!! LOVES LOVES!! =))

Bio make-up lesson tmr! Then we planned to have lunch, after which I can jolly well go for my piano then I can join them for Ratatouille! Mummy's such a dear even though she didnt let me go for the cruise with Wen Jia. She massaged my ankle for me somemore!

Love very stupid de! Hahaha. xD

Any idea why I wanna cycle? Cause I had been thinking about the beach.
解铃还须系铃人. I wonder if i will ever go there.

Out of a sudden i'm drooling for the Guides cookies. They dont have the Macademia one this year!! Sad.... Still, I ordered 2 boxes of the chocolate one! Yummy! :D

6 Sept.

2007-09-06T12:12:00.000+08:00

So it was favourite person's birthday yesterday!

But firstly, was the carnival. We had to reach at 7.15a.m.! But we were late, still we got to play! Haha. The sun was damn hot ever since 10 plus 11 plus la. Thank God our last game was at 1... While other teams were at 1.30! We went to take our cold baths. The bath was refreshing and fab but everybody already looked so red and burnt and black and tanned and whatever! Even Alicia!! Hahaha.

It was a long time since I felt so good playing on court with my team mates. I am serious, I love defence more than ever, which are Geraldine and Louisa! And I love the attack side who put the shots in, and I love the midcourt who are the ones who help us follow through!! :P

Of course these people are namely Alicia Pe, Andrea Seet, Choo Wan Qi, Tan Ci Hui, Chia Xinling, Yvonne Tan, Geraldine Tung, and Louisa Sng! There's still Wen Jia & Graci who's away, but nevertheless, I still love them. <3

So Louisa & I were the only ones who went to meet Wen Jia... We planned to go Siglap's Gelare and was sitting on 12 heading there supposedly, but we were so worn out that we decided to take the longer ride to my house, where we can might as well take books to study and go to simei and wait for Wen Jia who would only come hours later!

So we went Eighteen Chefs to have LUNCH and waited for Wj where we got her 'cake'. Sadly we didnt have a cable car dinner for her, plus we left her gift at my house! Lol so we came all the way back, after which we played Wen Jia's new limited edition Transformers Monopoly! Cool manzxzxz. Just that by 6 plus they left and I went home to sleep before piano...

And I didnt want to wake up but I had to. So anyway! Went to favourite person's house after piano cause they called. Pan, Brenda & Wj came to fetch me there! Haha, Gayf has already left by the time I saw them. We played MONOPOLY again until 11 plus before Pan & Brenda's parents came to send them home and Brenda's daddy and mummy sent me down the 2 bus-stops. I was really grateful cause i was hell tired already at that hour!

THANK YOU BRENSBRENS! :-*

4th September was Ci Hui's birthday! We went to SURPRISE here late morning. We couldnt find a lighter so Geraldine went up and down searching for it! When she and Wan Qi found one then we went to knock on her door. Ci Hui said she was surprised! :D

Heehee. The cake was nice although glue-y cause of the customized design! Plus the chicken her parents cooked for us. After which we decided to go to the ARCADE. We played bishi bashi, hoops, DDR even, LOL. What amused me the most was when they played spot-the-difference too and like 8 of us were staring down at one screen!!

Honestly I spent so much more time with them these hols and I feel really happy. Haha the worse thing that happened yesterday was some retard had to kick my ankle twice, okay or probably 2. I should not make a din otherwise coach's gonna scold me! Mummy ordered me to rest (I think) but I needa go meet up with my JIEMUIIX soon!! ^^

I wonder how's Graci and Zoots doing at OBS, it rained quite alot the first few days.

Brenda gave me this Donut from yummy and calls me the nicest person on Earth! :D

This is the cake we got for Ci Hui!! (:

Okie.. Sianzzz. I hate my ankle. :(

4th and 5th of September.

2007-09-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CI HUI,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAVOURITE PERSON!

I love my team mates like never before,

and I'm glad i got a nice nice girlfriend!

I miss my Jiemuiix too by the way,

Last but not least, i am very sorry, Ivan.

Yes Xinling! Netball all the way! ^^

September 3rd

2007-09-03T01:02:00.000+08:00

Maybe true love is the key that binds a pair together,
even when you know the going's gettin' tough.

I want to think.
I wonder what are you all thinking.
I think I still have much more I am able to do.
Who's able to enlighten me about what is it?
I want to know what are you all thinking.
I want to learn something new once more, cause everything aint enough at this rate.

Jia you, netballers! Plus for the carnival this wednesday. Today, coach said, 'Wake up!' again! Hmmm. Sounds familiar right? (:

2nd of September

2007-09-02T19:25:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday once more, LiHan! <3

I know this should make it happy, but I want to cry.

I think my wrist suck bollz.

Finally I see my internet connection getting into some order.

I hate seeing people cry yet being unable to do anything, cause it makes me feel sad.

And what the fuck? I got an additional 50 messages in my email inbox in just this week. I think its alot to delete.

Sometimes I think values doesnt really work much anymore. I hate the world because miracles hasnt happened to me. WHY IS THAT SO? WHY DOES THE SAME INCIDENT KEEPS REPEATING OVER AND OVER AGAIN?

This isnt 爱屋及乌 but it's 城门失火,殃及池鱼。

Okay this is another post of nonensical crap! Cause unhappiness = crap, which reflects weakness. And that shouldnt be what life is. I just think that I play really inconsistently. And I cant stand myself cause of that. Oh well. But LouLou did a great job except at the end apparently! :X heheeheeeeee! But I think she's good all along!

Haha my mood swings like 180 degrees, really fast. I'm such a typical girl. I really like hanging out with netballers, Zoots, jiemuiix, etc etc anyway. And just now at Jurong Point it was really cool. Even though like everyone of us left separate ways, after which I met All of them again except Jingying! I find it's really kinda cool! ^^

Let's do something.. What though? :(

Let's rest well people, and my dearest team mates for the day, Alicia, Andrea, Elize, Jamie, Xinling, Ci Hui, Kelyn, Geraldine, Louisa, Graci & Jing Ying! Love you all loads! <3 And Coach, & Ms Lee with her presence.

OH YEAH DURING THE PAST 2 WEEKS I HAD WATCHED BOURNE ULTIMATUM AND SECRET ALREADY! BU NENG SHUO DE MI MI! <3

September 1st

2007-09-01T15:55:00.000+08:00

It's already the new month!

Announcement: Please delete ALL my numbers, except my current one and ONLY ONE, the 8+++++++ one!

The past week plus had been pretty fun, some highlights were like Li Meng's birthday party last saturday, Li Han's birthday celebration with Jiemuiix at Ikea yesterday, baking cookies with Eileen and the rest for teachers day, (best thing was many teachers asked if we got extras!) and first time getting Munchy donuts with Brenda!

Along the way there was Gayf & Bel's birthday! Bel i'm dying to see you in a feminine shirt!! :X

Cant rmb much more with my brain, just that I rmb one day I find that gf was really sweet cause he advised me to sit at the side seat of the train! =))

Jiemuiix #1 birthday tomorrow, and so is PESS. I hope I wouldnt be late. Thank God it doesnt ends at 8 plus again like it did, 2 years ago. But I hope the time I get to spend with my team mates would be as great as it was then. Anyway I would love having a mini oven to bake all the cakes and cookies, but only from my mum of course. Haha alright I'd better go get ready cause I know I would be late for church at this rate.

So I would like to mention that it's the September holidays, as well as Ci Hui & Wen Jia's birthday this week! I'm sure these hols would be rather busy yet fun, missing all the make up lessons and going for more piano but having more carnivals! But damn it, I got 3 demerit points just for bring late thrice this term! Oohlala, hurray for my results though!

Enjoy at OBS, Graci, Zoots, and all who are going! Have a great holidays!

Hahaha another funny thing I rmb is TER**BLE! k but shant say more of course. No problem about the donuts, Jervis! And Brenda, are you sure i'm the nicest person on Earth! Heehee. :D

If people says, they look at the inside...

2007-08-20T20:57:00.000+08:00

Training cancelled, we went to watch the C' div boys and C' div girls match! Well.. Both lost, but at least they'll still have another chance!!

Was nearly late today & had to cab myself. $$! At least I tell myself no matter what bad times there are, 3 people never fails to be able to make my day! :D

Last Monday

Jie got A1 for Chinese, so she wanted to have Soup Restaurant for dinner. Met them after training, after that, we went to walk walk!

Tuesday

Last day of inter-league! Ivy couldnt come cause she went for Gwen Stefani's concert... ): oh well, so it was our netball picnic after that!! Haha. It got dark...

Love them a plenty manzxzxzxzxz!

Wednesday

There was the class performance! Anyhow la, at least I appreciate those who sent their regards and comments, at least we cooked smth up in the end. :)

o.O !

Thursday

Rush Hour 3 with my Jiemuiix! After which took neoprints again, Lol! ^^

'After all that we've been through, Rush Hour 1, Rush Hour 2?'

LMAO.

Friday

Went to Graci's house like I had said. Graci's dad had a secondary school gathering! Approximately 9 guys attended, and their ages sum up to near 500 years old!!! How cool is that, so Graci was like, I can imagine, 'Ban zhang: Eugene!' LOL.

Wanted to stay over at Graci's place but mum didnt want me too! But I told her I was scared after what I saw in the tree, Lol so she came to fetch me home! ^^

Saturday

Fireworks were so pretty! Just like Brenda who let down her hair. Hahaha. Will upload the photos and videos on photoblog when I receive them from Wen Jia!

Sunday

After church, we had the second round of Captain's ball! After which, Zoots came over for dinner, and we started on our homework!!

Haha, that's all for the past week. Sianzzzz, I managed to finsh all of my homework but physics. It's the 3rd week Mr Tan isnt here!

^^

2007-08-18T00:45:00.000+08:00

I feel mighty happy, cause I got a loving mother, who came down to fetch me home just because I said I was scared. Haha although I got a dad who pissed me off, but I know i'll forget about it the moment i'm awake from my sleep, and i'm mighty happy I saw favourite person today cause i was just thinking about her yesterday, and I had a wonderful meal at Graci's place. Thank you Graci!! Then, Wen Jia came over and they sent me off to the bus-stop. When I reached home, I see who's online! My gf! ^^

TAKE CARE CI HUI! Of your wrist, ankle and THUMB, please do tell me that you had seen a doctor!!! Next time must try figuring out where's the pain ah! Haha. :D

So SJAB and NCC sure did a great job in tending to Ci Hui! Although you cant deny St Johns were the ones who did it better, and Ci Hui was rather funny in the situation. Hahaha. I cant wait for GG's Chocolate and Macademia cookies!!!!

It's definitely better when you tell yourself that nothing's that bad after all. It'll all be over. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE MORE, MEGAN!! I'm going to watch fireworks tomorrow! :D :D :D

Rush Hour 3.

2007-08-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

Maybe not just like this.. Tired like in hell. Feeling like shit. Probably just for awhile. :(

I am sorry, Natalia. Cause we must've gotten you pissed.

6 more days to Gayf's birthday, 14 more to Belbel's! [ Sweetheart talked to me yesterday! :D ] Thank you Ci Hui & ch for the well wishes yesterday, and all who sent your comments. They were greatly comforting. Vivi was the best man for the whole thing. (:

Probably theres nothing more for now..

Today was another rare occasion. 7 of us made it! <3 So i'm thinking. How many times do you get to keep friends of the past, and not only the present?

Ivan's right even though others told me the same thing before, it's the people.

Let's treasure the golden times. ;)

2007-08-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

Sleepy.

"One thing I believe to the fullest is that if you think and achieve as a team, the individual accolades will take care of themselves. Talent wins games, but teamwork and intelligence win championships." – Michael Jordan

Ci Hui, you said the best words today. Especially before I got off the train. Thank you!! ^^

Thank you Brenda for the 4 rounds during P.E. today, Love you! Dont be upset, you know you gonna have the brains with our Jiemuiix influences!!

REST WELL MY GF! Especially for your 2 consecutive games and the last game for this week!! I'm going to tell you to take care once more!

Amath & Chinese down. Emath on thursday! Bio. Tomorrow.

Omen omen. GOGOGO!

Jiemuiix, thursday gonna be fun!

I'm looking forward to next thurs, Zoots, Graci and dreA! SECRET!! xD

Shall blog more next time, Louisa you threw ice into my front TWICE! Love times with the netballers, and many times in school. Heeheehee perhaps I should try rolling my eyes more, right Cherine! Goodnight all! It's going to be a new day! ;)

Inconsolable - Backstreet Boys

2007-08-12T19:20:00.000+08:00

Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you

2 Corinthians 4:8,9 (NKJV)

2007-08-12T13:16:00.000+08:00

"We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; We are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; Struck down, yet not destroyed."

Natalia's recent post makes a lot of sense.

"Kind thoughts are rarer than either kind words or deeds. They imply a great deal of thinking about others. This in itself is rare, but they also imply a great deal of thinking about others without the thoughts being criticisms. This is rarer still."
-- E.W. Faber

Come on, 'Try this experiment. For the next 30 days, do your best to suspend all judgment and criticism of others. Instead, wrap every person you meet in a warm and loving thought of kindness. Don't just limit this to physical contact, but apply it to everyone who comes to mind. And for those you consider enemies, make certain the thought is especially kind. There is a very good chance that by the time the experiment is finished, the way you habitually think about your fellow man will be forever changed.'

Like what I was hoping for,
Theres's gonna be something more to Life! :)

Haha tinGz! It's sunday today! Are you having dinner at my place?? xD

I still cant do a cartwheel like how nicely Louisa Cherine & Graci does it, my legs keep falling halfway! Haha but it's kind of fun cause it was only 2 weeks ago since i started trying!

Will be taking a break because of all the tests next week. I think netball picnic's coming up, along with the last match of the inter-league! Take care, all of my lovely team mates in 4 classes and friends! Team lunch together with Wen Jia was lovely. Let's hope everything gets better after this long weekend!

See you all in school!!!!!!! I should be hoping that I wouldnt be late tomorrow! ^^

Ugh, i feel this part wastes so much space. Hey ... , tag reply.

The cycle.

2007-08-11T15:01:00.000+08:00

Yet once again, all things will change.

Heythere.

I dont know what has gotten over me. I cant stop eating. I know I sound like a glutton.

Just like how I saw Irene at Suntec the other day, I saw ll yesterday! Though we didnt get to talk, but at least we waved, and it had been long.

Blaze last night, friendly against the Australians. They were pretty, lengthy, and some were aggresive. But Blaze was pretty enjoyable, like i'm finally remembering everyone's names better, besides Cheryl's and Yuxuan's now. Best thing was, after 3 quarters of draw, we won the last quarter by 1!! :)

Went to have Kfc with Ci Hui and Xinling after that! We know who pang sehed us to go 85 ahhhh. Haha but Ci Hui and Xinling are really good entertainment providers and zi-highers! This is a compliment. Haha.

Actually theres nothing I should ever be worried about. Because I know, even if the sky falls down, I'll have my family who's willing to be here with me. And I thank God if there's anyone else, cause now it's occuring to me, I can never tell who.

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Now, everytime it comes down to that topic we discussed, I feel a sense of helplessness. I wish next year comes soon, and I wish you know how much we need you. And I miss you evn though you're here, cause it happened that we dont get much opportunities together anymore. And its true.

I have this feeling Graci, that I havent been a good friend for you recently. And perhaps to many more of you.. This is probably what happens when thoughts differ sometimes. I'm really sorry, love. I hope you dont fall sick at your initiation camp.

I'm finally rejoicing that messages stop coming in like last time, like how could somebody who has only known you for 2 hours yet hardly interacted with you try messaging you for one whole week without any topic of interest?

I dont understand, '会不会觉得当你看到一个漂亮的女孩子走过会觉得很可惜，因为有一个女朋友就像被绑着似的'. I've eavesdropped on this, but you cant blame me. Like who else is there still talking on the phone after 4.30a.m.? Siao siao.

I've been asking my dearest gf to take care of himself! But I believe he will say he will... Right, gf? Please do. =))

And I feel like a bitch whenever I think bad of somebody that i'd rather not think of anything at all anymore.

Maybe what you all had caused, is fear.

2007-08-09T22:55:00.000+08:00

Baby, seasons change but people don't.

It's glad to know I live in a peaceful nation, without having to worry about having a shelter over my head, whether or not there's bread on the table, or are there any corruption going on or not. I understand Graci's love for the nation especially on this particular day, Oh how great is it to be patriotic sticking the given tattoos on to show your love.

Happy National Day, my country! :D

To continue, the past 2 days had been fabulous. Eve of national day, after the celebration we went to have our team lunch! Graci and Xinling got the cakes! How joyful! We had all 11 of us present together yesterday. It was fantastic! <3

So we went for our CIP at suntec city, which was the 24-hours streetz marathon. We did from 3-11p.m. before changing shifts! I got to do the netball one with Wen Jia and Shi Hui and the umpires! We got to run across a dangerous road and make announcements every once in awhile!! So the games passed really fast and we were rejoicing when finally somebody came to take over our shift!! But the next day, we reached at 7.30 again to take over their shifts from 8! This time I got to do it with Elize and Jamie as Wj wasnt here.

They are still a fun bunch.

Elize, 'You very cute leh,'

'But do you know cute is ugly but adorable?'

I swear they are really funny. Jamie got lost buying food which is a LOL thing and then she was known as the blur one. Next funny thing was Elize who was known as the attitude one. But I find them so CUTE lah! LOL, UGLY BUT ADORABLE. HAHAHA but of course what I mean is what Elize said after which, 'cute without the ugly!!'

Hahahahaha. Slept for only 5 hours last night but my Caramel/Mocha Frappucinos from Starbucks work efficiently! Haha that's all for today. Tomorrow's friendly! (:

Okie I'd better go catch the sleep i've been deprived of this week soon liaozxzxzxzxz! ^^

And what barks?

2007-08-07T22:21:00.000+08:00

Alright alright, before I start on this post, just wanna say:

Take care of your knees my dearest WD!! I'm sure it will be fine!

Congrats on today's win gf! I hope you didnt fall! =))

My brother is sick! The tough guy! But i'm sure he's going to be fine! :(

Let's go. As things in 3K has been heating up, we, or rather I, in order not to spoil the good name of everyone, has rounded down the worst-guy-you-can-ever-meet to this one ultimate destroyer/backstabber. This guy is none other than the two-faced weasel, whom is hated by many. Hello, this portion of my post is for you. I thought you were a friend, but by labelling my friend a slut yet sucking up to her at another moment, i dont think you deserve to be anybody's friend at all. I hate the way you give excuses for all your disgusting actions, plus seeing the way you act makes me barf. You are so pretentious that you make me dislike you really strongly.

Honestly, now you deserve no sympathy of mine.

#1: Np! One day our Jiemuiix clan shall go to Ikea together!! :D
#3: Mine's up! :D
Zhuting: Haha I can get a pic up for you if you wanna! Eh by the way my sister asked how come you never join us for dinner last sunday!! :D
#2: Yeah ftw!
#3: Milo's better!!!
#5: :O ! Hahaha ask Brenda!!!
SERENEE: Hope you had a great birthday! ^^
Grace: GAYF! Look forward to it! All the unhappy things on that day will come to pass but the happy things will be etched in your memory forever!! xD
Jiehui: Haha alright Jie Hui! Here's a reply to your tag, I hope it lasts long on the board!! ^^

#4: WE ARE JIEMUIIX! (: (: (:

CIP tomorrow and i'll get to see favourite person, after weeks! :D

85 with dreA, Ci Hui, Kelyn, Alicia & Geraldine for dinner after training! Though my arms are aching from gym yesterday, but somehow or another there are times we have to push ourselves on and.. There always seem to be something more to learn after every training. Haha times with the netballers are the best of all! ^^

National Day's coming up up up! I am still hoping that all things get resolved soon. Ahhhh who cares whether we'll tio gan by chaibye or not! LOL! xD

'Forgiven so that I can Forgive.'

2007-08-06T23:17:00.000+08:00

Sigh. What a word to start with.

I realized the best part of today was after school, in the stadium, etc. Somehow people or things have a way of making you feel better. Love you all team mates a plenty manzxzxzx! Although things arent always smooth sailing with you all too but at least it's better than other things a zillion times. :)

It's monday again. I've learnt to viewing this day as a special day. ^^

Why? Because on mondays this term, i'm either absent, late, or there are events like Listening Compre going on. It makes me realise I have wunderful siblings and parents who deserves my love more than anyone! :X

Haha. Nah my FRIENDS are great too. And what kind of FRIENDS you all know who! ;)

So I didnt mention that dear Ivy sprained her ankle on the 2.4km run day. She's got a bone protruding out exactly like Geraldine's, which was really like ahh, bad. Natalia came and join us to run on that day!! I still remember Belbel who pulled me along at the finishing line last year. Love her man! :)

Why are we subjects of higher authority? Why are we just like some poor miserly creatures who can be controlled by others? I thought we had our own rights, our own say, so it really depends on our own to be mindful of our own actions. I really don't know how to explain. If people dont see, people don't learn, then so be it. No matter what we arent drilling/ shouldnt drill others to the core right!

This is what I call mixed emotions. Which was actually written on my face for the day. Sorry my jiemuiix. (oh to mention we got our clan with Reuben as our #8 didi)

Inter-league tomorrow! I was so exhausted today that I just came home and slept my night away before waking up and watching the television!

If only situations remained as simple as 2G last year.. How I miss sitting with Kit sleeping and crapping, and how we wrote the exact same topic and content for our compos to be called up by Mrs Koh. xD

Haha. Class was much noisier last year plus we had Mingryanmond. (M.S, Ryan, Raymond!!) And where we could just shout across and yet it was still condusive studying together. Unlike now when i'm out, I have to get used to something else which wasn't like before. How difficult.

Sigh.

Comeon dudes, lets put behind sadness will ya and move on.

Haiya, and my gf has been sleeping really late recently even though it's his tournament season!! It's always better to sleep more, my gf!! =))

AndreA! I believe things will move on fine for you.

There's always much out there in this world. ;)